I am a Destonian because!!

I am a Destonian BECAUSE!!

I am a Destonian because – well first of all you cannot be fucking proud of being a human, 

look at what we are doing and have done and is creating, war, poverty, child porn, child slavery, child sex trafficking, and then all the people that doesn’t mind doing the things to the children, well that is a scary point to take into consideration. 

Millions of children in sex trafficking means there are even more men and women out there that doesn’t mind doing the shit they do to the children. And mentioning the earth as nature and oceans etc is way to extensive for simple points, it is beyond a simply post – we must STOP...

I am a Destonian because I stand as that which stops the current way of life as abuse and I present a new way, a way that is best for all life, it must be the end of the world as you/me know it ,FULL ON. Either through changing yourself as self will and understanding, or existence will equalize itself for you, either way equality will be here.

I am a Destonian because I have allowed myself to take action for what is here that we accept and allow existing within this existence as abuse and as what we call our life that is complete enslavement to money and that is destroying life and only harming all life.

I am a Destonian because I have realized that if I do not stand up and take self responsibility for myself as who I am and what I accept and allow to happen/exist within this reality with in and as each breath as myself and all life, then no one will, and I will not wait, I move myself and I direct myself in and as breathe as the physical one and equal. 

I am a Destonian because I have seen what cannot be unseen with in using simple common sense and my mere physical eyes that allow me to see that there are other beings in this world in this existence that co-exist with me, and that my existence is co-dependent on theirs, and yet I/we accept and allow most of these beings to suffer and now I have taken my responsibility as all life towards life with in standing up and living a principal that is best for all life. 

I am a Destonian because I realize that the way we live within our daily lives is complete enslavement to a system of where there are beings who have and does not have and that we all have accepted and allowed a system that dictates our every move through money as our god and I see this abuse that we all do/participate with in, and I speak up, I write and I research how the current system functions so that I can change the system that is here into a system that is best for all, every being and all of existence as my. As I would like it to be for me equally for others.

I am a Destonian because I am living/changing myself with in “love thy neighbor as thy self” in fact as who I am with in principal of what is best for all within common sense and self honesty.

I am a Destonian because I am willing to take on the universe as myself and within that see what I am accepting and allowing with in myself as abuse and enslavement and stop the systems that exist within me so that I can stand with in the matrix and stand for a new system that is best for all and that is in consideration of life and not profit.

I am a Destonian because I am letting go of all ego as energy as that which is destroying life and to stand as life one and equal within and as the physical. 

I am a Destonian because I am willing to walk the message of Jesus even if it means I will be crucified (literally or metaphorically as other ways but same intentions) by those that fear equality and a new way of life that I am speaking and living that is best for all life in living application.

I am a Destonian because I am taking self responsibility for myself with in purifying myself as life through using the tools of self forgiveness, common sense and self honesty and to within this create and re-design myself as life one and equal to stand with in all shoes equally.

I am a Destonian because I care about my fellow man/animals/plants/life as myself.

I am a Destonian because I care about life and will do anything and everything to stop the abuse that is here and bring heaven to earth for all beings. 

Destonian isn’t a believe – It is a principal and a way of living that is best for all life. 

BECAUSE I am a Destonian.

Smoking

Smoking
Wow I have smoked for over 4 years and then one day suddenly I had my last, I stop.
Now why did I stop smoking and why would anyone want to stop smoking.
I stopped because I am living a principal and I saw that with in stopping smoking I can live this principal I stand for as a practivist, a real active living practivist for what I stand for. And because this kind of activism can fit into my daily live and I can make a big change this way, without compromising myself in the system.
I stand for equality and ending abuse in this world, oneness and equality a new monetary system that is best for all, currently that solution is equal money for all.
So how does this fit together – well within the current money system the way cigarettes are being produced and sold is abuse, the people that work their asses off as slaves in the fields to produce tobacco is being supported by people buying the product that is cigarettes – and we are not supporting them with in having food and a better life, no we are supporting them with in accepting and allowing their current situation in this world and what they are doing to survive and accepting and allowing themselves to be abused by those that only cares for themselves and all the money they can get in this world to survive as well and live like gods while deliberately enjoying abusing others.
Now with in understanding that we who smoke are actually directly also abusing the people that is suffering on the fields of tobacco farms and that will never get out of their situations unless we all stop accepting and allowing the current abuse that we are participating with in daily to exist.
How will this happen, we stop smoking, the big smoking companies stop making money and the people that works on the tobacco farms stop having jobs that is deliberately abusing them, so then now that everyone is on a equal level, the farmer and the boss because they both ran out of jobs because the people stopped supporting them, is now forced to have to take self responsibility together – thus they both have to now see what is the equal solution to the current problem here on earth.
This will then force people to re consider their actions and the abuse they are accepting and allowing as the current money system.
And this is where we come in as the solution and the answer – equal money for all.
So why do I only do this with Smoking and not cloths and all the other stuff –
Because I have to consider what is practical and what works currently within the system – smoking is also something that everyone can do as a practical way of being an activist to bringing change to this world and stop smoking – not everyone can suddenly stop buying cloths because that will not work practically. Smoking is something we can go with out – just like hair and everything that goes with hair. (and look at how having hair is abusing earth and all it does is support peoples ego’s)
I obviously could not have done this without Support and assistance as I was addicted to smoking and smoked up to 2 packs a day – it was really expensive each month and I had emotional bullshit attached to smoking such as suppressing anger and frustration.
When I stopped smoking I had to work through all of these points within myself and I had to be able to actually live with myself without relying on an outside source – I have no stopped smoking for over a year and I am clear of all emotional addiction and all addiction itself from smoking.
I could have only done this within participating within the DIP, and the ITD course that I have been participating with for over 2 years now, with in the DIP and ITD courses I was presented with tools that I could affectively support myself through all the emotional attachments and addiction , such as Self Forgiveness and how to effectively apply it, How I was able to identify patterns and mind constructs related to smoking, from how I saw the points manifested from when I was but only a child.
I learned how to effectively breathe through all the points that I saw was misleading me to fall and give in to smoking again, I was able to be self honest with myself and stand stop.
I have now developed a point of actual self will, not self suppression,
so smoking is but one point that reveals us to us and what we have accepted in and out of ourselves in reality, if you are interested in becoming the change in this world then please check out the links and join me at the DIP, and ITD courses and stand for a new equal money system.

http://equalmoney.org/
http://www.desteniiprocess.com/

Mr nice and bad guy masks, SF

Mr nice and bad guy masks SF

Being the nice guy is being the bad guy.

I experience with myself that when I am being nice or polite to people I am accepting and allowing them to abuse me and to deceive me with in my own politeness and niceness, because once I have gone nice towards a person with in a conversation I cannot suddenly turn bad as being harsh and mean because I have already given them the permission to speak out their own opinion as if it is right and justifiable through being polite about the point in the beginning, thus i am literally fucking the point up from standing up and saying what makes common sense and to stop the abuse and self deception.

I have experienced this point a couple of times when talking-to people over facebook about religion and believes, I would start off with making a comment on the facebook page and someone would say that who am I to judge their religion or believe and then I would react with in seeing such comment and finding it as an attack and thus I go into being polite to not have to face the point of conflict.

So then I would say I am not judging i am simply revealing the deception and showing all common sense, and then the other person sees that I am being polite they use this as a way to see if they can convert me or get me to understand their ways and their opinions and then after they have replied back I cannot stand and say stop because this will cost the chance that that being has of seeing the Desteni message because of my irresponsible actions that I have taken within the moment of ego and energy.

So I see when I speak with people about something I have to simply breath and not go into nice or man or attacking of fleeing, I have to stand with in absolute with in what I am saying and as principal, I cannot use nice as a way to manipulate the situation because I have and will always be last and be taken advantage of, and I can also not YET become the bad, mean guy because I do this from a starting point of reaction and become possessed with the energies and this is where I lose control and might black out which I find happens.

Breath is at most important and to stay as breath and standing as the principal with in breath and only speaking the principal and living the principal is required and quite dame effective, wonderful I may add lol, I have done this within breath with in tight situations in town a few times and I have to say it is really effective. Oneness and equality and what is best for all, self honesty and common sense.

SF

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be the nice guy to be liked and to be able to have people manipulated to my will and what I want and need to get done, thus with in this possessed state I am also allowing the polarity to brew and grow within me as frustration and irritation and self hatred and anger because i believe to perceive that what I am getting for what I am giving is unfair, being nice but everyone is mean and dis respectful back to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear simply to be here and act and direct with in self honesty with in common sense and that which is best for all, not trusting myself as breath

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put on the mask of mister nice guy because of the lack of self trust and relying on hope that the mister nice guy mask will get things done for me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make myself believe that the mister nice guy mask will get things done for me all the time and thus relying on hope instead of simply trusting myself and standing as me here within and as the principal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live within the mind construct of hope and thus have created a mask that I can wear called mister nice guy that always hope his niceness will get things done for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put my trust with in a programmed fake face that I have programmed myself through past experienced where the fake face worked and thus not place my trust with in the hope of that the fake face will work

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on memory and what I have experienced within the past as working for me as to using a fake face called mister nice guy face to manipulate the outcome of situations and hope for the best which is totally self deception because hope is a delusion and a self created comfort for the mind to hide behind instead of taking action and making something happen and work through self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to identify myself and my self value and self trust as the mister nice guy mask that was designed and created from the starting point of lack of self trust and self value as life here one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to use the self created mask called mister nice guy to abuse and to manipulate and to hide behind to not have to take self responsibility for this reality and what I have accepted and allowed to exist within this reality through money to have placed me within situations where I have to use such a mask.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself o fear letting go of the mister nice guy bullshitter face

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear who I am without the mister nice guy and mister bad guy faces.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear walking through the fears and insecurities that I have hidden and suppressed behind the mister nice guy mask and which i abuse through the mister bad ass mask.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear thorouging the mister nice guy mask away and allow myself to let others see who I really am without participating with in polarities as energy but as principal here one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the unknown once I have allowed myself to within moments when the point is here and representing itself to let go of the energy that frightens me and then I place my mister nice guy mask on to hide instead of facing self and taking self responsibility to breath through he point and stand with in and as the system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not knowing who I am without my personality that protects me as the mister nice guy and mister mean bad guy masks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that It will take effort to get through these points instead of simply breathing here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the response of others and their reactions and what their reactions might be towards me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have already created an idea with in my mind of how and who I will be without my mister nice guy and bad guy masks and thus I have already created another personality already to be a back up to hide my fears and insecurities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create back up for in case I cannot stand, with in the in case I have already fallen within me and thus I am not breathing effectively and fearing the future moment and scenarios that might occur.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate with in the mind as if it is valid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate with in future projection as ideas and self opinionated believe system that is designed and created according to my specific insecurities and fear to make it all sound valid and as if I will not make it and not stand,

I stop this

I allow myself to breath I am here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the future

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the fear of the future as a picture with in my mind according o what I want to fear to be able to validate my fear and thus participate with in the physical applications to avoid the fear and thus create it with in my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wonder off from the point I am working on instead of staying focussed here to the point.

I allow myself to correct myself here one and equal

I breathe in, ....................................out

Rushing self, Not breathing

Rushing myself for others, because of the believe that I have to prove myself and show that I can do this immediately.
Instead stop, breath, move self here as the physical in breath in common sense which is best for all.
Also with in rushing myself I have found that I fuck up a lot according to what I see as fucking up, and immediately judge myself.
Instead breath stop, learn the lesson and do not take anything for granted, stop judgement, move self, forgive self unconditionally
The only solution is breath


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself for others, indicating self dishonesty participating in
the mind instead of here breathe

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself for others according to the believe of I have to

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I have to rush myself

I allow myself to slow down for myself, till I can completely trust myself in the physical as breath, not rushing and in that take things for granted and ‘fuck up’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel I have to rush myself to prove myself to others
What is there to prove? The point of look at me I can do this immediately, and the right way. Fear of mistakes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in the fear of making a mistake, believing if I do it fast I will keep it simple and practical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in the starting point of fear, nervousness, anxiety, and stress

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself according to the emotion, feeling, and thoughts I am having.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take things for granted

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be gentle with myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear fucking up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the point of fucking up, instead of seeing it as unconditional support and assistance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined certain things in my life as fucking up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from all the points that I fear fucking up within,
never taking these points into confederation unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself believing with in rushing myself I will void all the points’ witch I fear fucking up with in

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create polarity within the point of making mistakes or fucking up, seeing other things I do as right and as not fucking up, living in the save zone, creating an unsaved zone lol

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as polarity, rushing and slowing, instead of just breath here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself separate from all other things, wich is rushing

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in comparison to other things and beings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in the starting point of comparing myself to
others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in wanting to prove to myself that I am better
than another being

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in fear of being less than another being

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live within separation of another being, fearing the being and
feeling I have to prove myself to that person, which I than access rushing through nervousness, and making a
mistake is inevitable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear slowing down for me, because I fear not trusting myself
with in slowing down, as getting things done

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear slowing down

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that trust is within moving fast or slowing down, instead
realizing self as trust with in all that is here in breath

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have created an idea about slowing down, seeing slowing
down as not being able to get to all the things that needs to get done

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from time and all that needs to get done, wit in
this I have already lost

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see it as losing when not being able to get all tasks done in
time.

I stop, BREATH

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to realize self here in breath through rushing self, rushing self will
only leave self in judgement, not taking all into consideration.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take things for granted

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move as the mind, quantum time, which will only resemble in
self dishonesty as life

I stop

I allow myself to slow down for myself

I allow myself to not take things for granted

Breath

Instant decision

Instant decision

Thursday night was my dishes night. I was doing dishes with a companion
As my companion asks me so what do you want to do? I replied well what do you feel like doing, and she replies back, I asked first? I stood there with a decision to make I said well I will wash if you do not feel like it?!?!?! Waa what the hell I couldn’t decide.

This was a simple question, and a simple decision I had to make. Not even a big one, I realized with in this, how am I able to decide what to do in the main stuff in this world if I cannot even make a simple decision about washing or drying dishes.

My companion turned and looked at me and said, Gian I have seen now a couple of times you make a decision based on a believe of what you think the other person doesn’t feel like doing. I saw this point clearly.

She told me then, look inside of yourself, and see what you prefer to do, not what you feel like doing, and then decide. She explained to me stand here in breath and see yourself doing dishes, and then see yourself drying the dishes.

I did this, it took me one breath and I told her, okay I want to do drying the dishes, and she said okay.
This felt wrong to me.

I told her that doing this feels wrong to me making a decision for myself.
I then told her that I saw this point and its really cool, I have never considered this and believed it to be wrong, I always make decisions for other people and what they would like doing, I would always take the crappy things to do, not what I prefer to do. I told her I always kind of saw myself as sacrificing myself for others, believing I am doing the right thing.

This was really a cool point in such a simple thing; I see this has to change.

SO Saturday came and we all on the farm went to the mall for shopping day, we have a shopping day each month on pay day, a few of us wanted to go to a different mall, where a specific movie was showing, and other went to the regular mall,

As we ( the few that wanted to go to a different mall) got dropped off at the mall we were all kind of ‘excited’ for the movie, we all went inside and talked about what we are going to do, first we wanted to check the time of the movie when it starts, and then we wanted to go and eat and drink some coffee.
So we went to the movies as we looked at the movies we saw it was closed up permanently, we all went what the fuck, OH NO! I stood there , breathed and looked inside myself I kind of felt like time travelling, into time, and I saw what was going to be the day at the mall, we were all going to be very grumpy and board just walking around for hours as we wait for time to go by till we got picked up. I stopped, I directed the situation very quickly, I told the person closest to me call the driver, let’s go to the other mall, as she calls the driver. The driver says okay I will come back and pick you up, the driver wasn’t very far away, and we waited like 1min outside till she showed up.

I appreciated myself allot for this. In that moment when I looked at the whole day in one breath and all the consequences and effects that could take place. I could have been quiet and let someone ells decide what to do, because of the thing I have about sacrificing myself for others through letting them make the decisions, and not considering myself, as to what I would prefer for myself to experience.

I am now going to do this every time in all the small things I do. When it is necessary, till I can trust myself with this.
I also saw the point that it is in the small things that the big things will be decided. Through your own physical participation.