Sleep and tiredness in process – self created limitations

Sleep and tiredness in process – self created limitations

First get rid of the thought that tiredness is nice and get rid of the comfort placed in the idea, this will allow you to see beyond, because the delusion, the veil is gone, now you can see what is here, sleep is where you die for a moment to come back in rebirth of your physical reality , if you feel you require to rebirth then look at why, do not deny it simply look at why, i have found that I mostly want to sleep to forget about me fears and anxieties and all the things I have to do and didn’t do etc, so that I can rebirth to feel fresh and do it, but if this becomes a constant thing, then you aren’t taking self responsibility but rather hiding with in sleep ?! – And look at how you are creating it in your life.

Within my process I have faced the point of sleeping a lot and how it controlled my life.

I would do things daily and end up being tired or exhausted or I would over sleep during my days that I could and find myself not having time to do anything else.

Or I would be working and I would be tired the whole time and not be able to perform 100% and do my best and get things done.

I would use so many excuses to why I am tired and why I need Sleep and how I am not getting sleep and how I must get sleep and how I can’t get steep because of this happening and that happening anf this person doing this and that, man so much blame for not getting sleep and so many resons to why I need sleep.

So after I have been getting along with only 5 hours of sleep every night for three months - 

I started applying simple steps for myself to test if the sleep is real or simply mind created, I started with stopping saying to people out loud – I am tired, I stopped saying o myself I am tired, I stopped saying to myself when someone asked me to do something that I am tired, I stopped those thoughts and to check it the tiredness was real.

Fascinatingly I found out with in doing that I was actually able to do twice the amount of work I usually did with the same amount of sleep as in 5 hours a night. 

And then the type of sleep I am getting isn’t even deep sleep, it is awake sleep, I sleep in such a way that any sound in the room I am aware of it and I turn my body every half an hour or so, Do not yet know why lol.

So I found out through my own  will to test if the sleep I felt/created within me was real or not  and I found that it was self created to manipulate myself to stay within my own self created limitations as the mind based on ideas and believes, all created from the point of fairness. 

Because I felt it was unfair that i worked more and harder because I have the ability than others that I needed more rest and more sleep, which was the self deception i have created for myself because i compared myself instead of breathing and growing and expanding myself beyond my own accepted and allowed limitations.

I even now put in night shifts if I can to do some physical work, because I really want to get the lizard’s cage ready outside and it requires a lot of my attention since I am doing this for them it is my responsibility. And it’s pretty awesome to do landscaping. 

So if you are tired and belief you need sleep or feel you need sleep, test it through stopping the thoughts about it and see what remains. That will be the test, because if someone comes and say, hey - can you quickly carry this for me, and you have the excuse in your head of I can’t I am to tired or anything related, then tell yourself stop breathe and take the thoughts away/stop them  and see what remains, are you then really tired or did you just create it, and ask yourself but why did you just do that, why did you just now create that limitation for yourself. 

That is the question, what is moving you and directing you to create limitations for yourself, where is the point of competition and feeling it isn’t fair or unfair etc. 

Check yourself before you wreck yourself. 

Stop self limitation and see what is real, delete the thoughts, be physical. And BREATHE.

Check out the links on my front page if you are interested in joining me in change and bringing forth a new world for all life. Walking the process of life. Ending brainwashing and mind control.

Rushing self, Not breathing

Rushing myself for others, because of the believe that I have to prove myself and show that I can do this immediately.
Instead stop, breath, move self here as the physical in breath in common sense which is best for all.
Also with in rushing myself I have found that I fuck up a lot according to what I see as fucking up, and immediately judge myself.
Instead breath stop, learn the lesson and do not take anything for granted, stop judgement, move self, forgive self unconditionally
The only solution is breath


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself for others, indicating self dishonesty participating in
the mind instead of here breathe

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself for others according to the believe of I have to

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I have to rush myself

I allow myself to slow down for myself, till I can completely trust myself in the physical as breath, not rushing and in that take things for granted and ‘fuck up’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel I have to rush myself to prove myself to others
What is there to prove? The point of look at me I can do this immediately, and the right way. Fear of mistakes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in the fear of making a mistake, believing if I do it fast I will keep it simple and practical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in the starting point of fear, nervousness, anxiety, and stress

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself according to the emotion, feeling, and thoughts I am having.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take things for granted

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be gentle with myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear fucking up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the point of fucking up, instead of seeing it as unconditional support and assistance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined certain things in my life as fucking up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from all the points that I fear fucking up within,
never taking these points into confederation unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself believing with in rushing myself I will void all the points’ witch I fear fucking up with in

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create polarity within the point of making mistakes or fucking up, seeing other things I do as right and as not fucking up, living in the save zone, creating an unsaved zone lol

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as polarity, rushing and slowing, instead of just breath here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself separate from all other things, wich is rushing

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in comparison to other things and beings

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in the starting point of comparing myself to
others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in wanting to prove to myself that I am better
than another being

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rush myself with in fear of being less than another being

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live within separation of another being, fearing the being and
feeling I have to prove myself to that person, which I than access rushing through nervousness, and making a
mistake is inevitable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear slowing down for me, because I fear not trusting myself
with in slowing down, as getting things done

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear slowing down

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that trust is within moving fast or slowing down, instead
realizing self as trust with in all that is here in breath

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have created an idea about slowing down, seeing slowing
down as not being able to get to all the things that needs to get done

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from time and all that needs to get done, wit in
this I have already lost

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see it as losing when not being able to get all tasks done in
time.

I stop, BREATH

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to realize self here in breath through rushing self, rushing self will
only leave self in judgement, not taking all into consideration.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take things for granted

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move as the mind, quantum time, which will only resemble in
self dishonesty as life

I stop

I allow myself to slow down for myself

I allow myself to not take things for granted

Breath