Battle star galactic and decisions ranting and raving.

Watching battle star galactic I have had a chance to throughout a couple of seasons and a bunch of episodes see how I experience myself and where I find judgment within the story and what is being done.

The major point for me that I saw was making decisions,

Each decisions that had to be made by bill would in fact influence the whole of humanity and the survival of all of humanity since they are the only people that escaped from caprice and now had the responsibility of surviving as a human race.

And all the people had to trust bill even though they do not know him personally or anything about him, they simply had to follow the orders that he gave and everyone had to apply the orders, there is not time to question each order because it could mean the death of all of the human race from caprice or the survival of them all.

Now what I have noticed with myself was how I would judge each decision that he made or that any other person with in the story had an influence on making or later on the decisions that the president came into also and made.

I found that I would judge the decisions and make better decisions that what they have made or so I make myself believe that my decisions are better lol, I would then tense up while watching how each decision would play out and the consequences of the play outs, now either way if it was a right or wrong decision there are consequences that played out and that all they really could do was deal with it through making more decisions with in a perspective of a solution, no one had the time or luxury of thinking negative or giving up or being all shitty because they could be the end of all human kind.

Now I saw that I had to let go of the judgments I made while watching the story and rather stand with in bill’s shoes or anyone that was making the hard ass decisions and see how they made it and why and see all the purposes and reasons and then I simply must not judge it as bad or good decisions but what works in the moment and that is needed to be done.

I saw that it worked like a casino,

When you go to a casino you take money with you and within the casino you have many choices of machines that you can play on, each choice of machine has a different way of presenting itself and how you can win, but they all work the same through putting in your money and pushing a button, so now it all depends on how much money you have because then you can play more choices of machines that can give you bigger prises if you win or you have to stick to the little machines where you might win little by little, but most of the time you win nothing, but you did gain a boost in hope, you had a boost of energy and that you could have won, but maybe next time, the few people that does win makes you want to win and have the energy they are gaining (money ) and thus you come back next time.

Now this is the other part, this part is the decision part, when you go into a casino to play the game to win or lose you constantly need to make a decision that how much are you willing to bet, because the more you bet the more you can win, but you can then also lose a shit load more, but if you win you are home free, or are you going to play for only a bit, and with a lot of hope, I mean in a casino if you lose money it is gone and you are fucked and if you win, well it goes the other way.

So now you have a crew (family) and you have to make the decisions, the hard ones and you have to really take the risk because it is all on you no matter which way it goes, if you make a decision to play all your money and you win (this is where bill had to go against everything the crew said or the president and make a military call that seemed so wrong), the Family will love you and cheer you and be there for you, but if you lose the family will hate you and resent you and be really pissed at you, but still it is one decision that goes both ways.

I see Battle star Galactica as a casino – with in every decision they make on the story they can either win or lose and they have to make many big bets and many small ones to get the big ones. And so i see that within each decision it will be best to be self honest and use common sense and apply 1 + 1 = 2. To not judge at all as what is right or wrong but what the fuck works, it is time to let go of the morality

The current system is a casino and we all are playing it daily, either you wake up luck or not, you can be killed by a bus passing the street or die of old age, who knows unless you become certainty and stop the casino game, battle star galactic shows how the casino game is played with in the politics and the military and the civilians and all the bullshit on a smaller scale. Instead of keeping it simple.

Simple would have been to make a decision to firstly unite all the people as one thing between all the ships, not having separate governments and shit, to care for each other and to in spite of everything be unconditional towards each other and fucking change, I mean they all live on ships in space with limited stuff and still they disregard each other and prefer to play games.

Stop hating the fucking cylons (machines and the system that is created in the humans own image and likeness as enslavement) and stand one and equal as them and change from there on, I mean even after the cylons try to live together the humans still rebel instead of learning the lessons.

Well I will end here; this was a cool rant and rave for me,

Mr nice and bad guy masks, SF

Mr nice and bad guy masks SF

Being the nice guy is being the bad guy.

I experience with myself that when I am being nice or polite to people I am accepting and allowing them to abuse me and to deceive me with in my own politeness and niceness, because once I have gone nice towards a person with in a conversation I cannot suddenly turn bad as being harsh and mean because I have already given them the permission to speak out their own opinion as if it is right and justifiable through being polite about the point in the beginning, thus i am literally fucking the point up from standing up and saying what makes common sense and to stop the abuse and self deception.

I have experienced this point a couple of times when talking-to people over facebook about religion and believes, I would start off with making a comment on the facebook page and someone would say that who am I to judge their religion or believe and then I would react with in seeing such comment and finding it as an attack and thus I go into being polite to not have to face the point of conflict.

So then I would say I am not judging i am simply revealing the deception and showing all common sense, and then the other person sees that I am being polite they use this as a way to see if they can convert me or get me to understand their ways and their opinions and then after they have replied back I cannot stand and say stop because this will cost the chance that that being has of seeing the Desteni message because of my irresponsible actions that I have taken within the moment of ego and energy.

So I see when I speak with people about something I have to simply breath and not go into nice or man or attacking of fleeing, I have to stand with in absolute with in what I am saying and as principal, I cannot use nice as a way to manipulate the situation because I have and will always be last and be taken advantage of, and I can also not YET become the bad, mean guy because I do this from a starting point of reaction and become possessed with the energies and this is where I lose control and might black out which I find happens.

Breath is at most important and to stay as breath and standing as the principal with in breath and only speaking the principal and living the principal is required and quite dame effective, wonderful I may add lol, I have done this within breath with in tight situations in town a few times and I have to say it is really effective. Oneness and equality and what is best for all, self honesty and common sense.

SF

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be the nice guy to be liked and to be able to have people manipulated to my will and what I want and need to get done, thus with in this possessed state I am also allowing the polarity to brew and grow within me as frustration and irritation and self hatred and anger because i believe to perceive that what I am getting for what I am giving is unfair, being nice but everyone is mean and dis respectful back to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear simply to be here and act and direct with in self honesty with in common sense and that which is best for all, not trusting myself as breath

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put on the mask of mister nice guy because of the lack of self trust and relying on hope that the mister nice guy mask will get things done for me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make myself believe that the mister nice guy mask will get things done for me all the time and thus relying on hope instead of simply trusting myself and standing as me here within and as the principal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live within the mind construct of hope and thus have created a mask that I can wear called mister nice guy that always hope his niceness will get things done for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put my trust with in a programmed fake face that I have programmed myself through past experienced where the fake face worked and thus not place my trust with in the hope of that the fake face will work

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on memory and what I have experienced within the past as working for me as to using a fake face called mister nice guy face to manipulate the outcome of situations and hope for the best which is totally self deception because hope is a delusion and a self created comfort for the mind to hide behind instead of taking action and making something happen and work through self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to identify myself and my self value and self trust as the mister nice guy mask that was designed and created from the starting point of lack of self trust and self value as life here one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to use the self created mask called mister nice guy to abuse and to manipulate and to hide behind to not have to take self responsibility for this reality and what I have accepted and allowed to exist within this reality through money to have placed me within situations where I have to use such a mask.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself o fear letting go of the mister nice guy bullshitter face

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear who I am without the mister nice guy and mister bad guy faces.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear walking through the fears and insecurities that I have hidden and suppressed behind the mister nice guy mask and which i abuse through the mister bad ass mask.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear thorouging the mister nice guy mask away and allow myself to let others see who I really am without participating with in polarities as energy but as principal here one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the unknown once I have allowed myself to within moments when the point is here and representing itself to let go of the energy that frightens me and then I place my mister nice guy mask on to hide instead of facing self and taking self responsibility to breath through he point and stand with in and as the system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not knowing who I am without my personality that protects me as the mister nice guy and mister mean bad guy masks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that It will take effort to get through these points instead of simply breathing here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the response of others and their reactions and what their reactions might be towards me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have already created an idea with in my mind of how and who I will be without my mister nice guy and bad guy masks and thus I have already created another personality already to be a back up to hide my fears and insecurities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create back up for in case I cannot stand, with in the in case I have already fallen within me and thus I am not breathing effectively and fearing the future moment and scenarios that might occur.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate with in the mind as if it is valid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate with in future projection as ideas and self opinionated believe system that is designed and created according to my specific insecurities and fear to make it all sound valid and as if I will not make it and not stand,

I stop this

I allow myself to breath I am here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the future

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the fear of the future as a picture with in my mind according o what I want to fear to be able to validate my fear and thus participate with in the physical applications to avoid the fear and thus create it with in my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wonder off from the point I am working on instead of staying focussed here to the point.

I allow myself to correct myself here one and equal

I breathe in, ....................................out