A Click of a mouse button

A Click of a mouse button

A little point that came to me this morning as I was going through all the posts and comments and photos on facebook about people of Desteni supporting each other.

I see now that how really important it is for Destonians to support each other, if it is by doing a simple thing such as liking a post they made (that is relevant though) or by placing a comment and showing the other that they are being affective or not or that they are standing as the group.

All the little simple things that will take only one breathe at a time from each destonian to support his fellow destonian that is standing for life and oneness and equality and to end all abuse. I mean it really is simple and it really is actually fun.

I looked at facebook this morning and at all the Destonians that is supporting each other and how we all are keeping each other here with in support such as liking a post, or commenting or simply giving a presence, if this wasn’t there then how many would have continued doing what they are doing.

This is what came to me while being on facebook, would I have kept doing what I am doing on the internet in spite of all the abuse and all the shit going on and all the support I got from others and so forth.

Would I be able to do exactly what i am now doing with the same manner and not change a thing if everything went in revere for me and that instead of people liking a post they would ignore it and not see, not hear and not give a fuck, and the only comment s that I would get would be to insult me, and then there would be no backup such as other destonians to assist and support.

It might be a small scenario but yet it shows one thing – How powerful a click of a mouse button really is, how much actually goes into each and every click you make and where you are making it count in every breath.

So Imagine a small group of only one hundred destonians and one hundred clicks a second from each and every one of them every time they are on the internet and every single click is counting for equality and ending all abuse, imagine a thousand and then ten thousand.

A click is a powerful thing if it is used correctly in breath for that which Matters and Counts.

I find no effort in doing one click on breath at a time; If I did I would have known there is a problem

Click

My Resistance to write/type is a lack of understanding.

I have come to see with myself that I have a resistance to typing and that I will easily give in to any other point of entertainment before typing, writing myself to freedom and to come to understand myself and this reality.

So i will now give to myself the understanding of why it is important to write and not create a resistance of any justification to why I cannot write or any reason of the mind, this is also a submission to the mind and the continuation of enslavement. Because I do not move myself to type or write means I am a slave to something ells that is moving and directing me.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist typing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see typing as taking my time where I could have done something ells such as watching a movie or looking at my internet channels,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get distracted from typing and writing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not time my day in such a way that I give myself the time and complete focus to write and type without any distractions to create reasons and justifications to not type.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get lazy and simply not type at all some times and say i will type tomorrow, and this never happens.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to keep on postponing myself with in typing and writing myself to freedom and to lay everything out for myself with in typing and writing so that I can have clear understandings on all the points I am facing and to move through all the points effectively and not mind fuck myself with in keeping the points with in my mind as a memorie that I will simply later on lose and cannot trust when I recall it as something that will come back as a fading memory and thus I go into assuming and guessing instead of direct here to the point with in clarification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up on myself with in typing and writing for myself because I see that I have nothing new or more to say than what has already been said by others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to type and write about things that I assume other will find interesting and as entertaining to read, instead of writing for myself as myself to understand myself within the context of all life and what I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as me as all equally and one.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back on typing and writing myself out on the fear that I will be seen as ridiculous and silly on what I might write bout.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see and judge the writings that I want to write about but never do as silly or ridiculous and that I might not get feedback on it or tell anybody anything new that can assist and support them

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that everything that I write must only be interesting and entertain people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to type and write myself to freedom from the starting point of doing it only for other, I allow myself to do it for myself as all one and equal as life here BREATHE

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to write and type from the starting point of wanting to support and assist others, i allow myself to write for myself to support and assist myself and all life one and equal as me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that when I type about a point that It will not come out right as what I mean to say or that I might not be specific enough to the point.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have judged writing and typing as boring and only something for people that I have classified as nerds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have separated myself from other people that I have classified as nerds and thus I have limited myself to freely type as they do through the fear of being seen as a nerd.

I will definitely type more..

I see within myself that I actually have a shit load to type about especially SF and being extremely specific with in every point that comes up while doing it.

I bottle up to much which leads to many other side effect that is consequences and is to late as a play out.

Breathe.

The physical suffers if you do not breathe

The physical suffers if you do not breathe

I went to the pumps at 9:34 in the morning to pump water which is all the way down by the river on the farm and my room is all the way up at the top of the farm lol, so it is about 200m to there and then back, I have to go to the pumps to switch it on and to open the one tanks valve at the bottom to fill up the dam for the animals and all the life there.

Now after doing this walking already for a whole week it is tiring and a lot of walking if one is not breathing effectively, so today at 12:20 when I went down to the pumps for the third time to close the valve for the one tank that is running into the dam I felt my body was exhausted and that I had a head ache and I was really heavy with in my whole physical expression and movement, this was really irritating especially in the heat.

After arriving at the pump and closing it I started walking back up (which is up hill) and I just could not I was out of breath and I was tired and I wanted to stop in the shade and just get myself a breath.

What caused this??

Answer: I was with in the mind walking towards a destination and I wanted to reach the destination immediately (this point causes stress fear and anxiety) because I did not like the current point I was at within the physical, thus with in my walk as the physical I was walking at a phase and with my head leaning forward (not in line with my body) and from my head leaning forward it caused tension on my neck which caused all the head ache and pain in my lower back which made me feel irritated heavy and like giving up with myself and as if I just wanted to stop. The whole experience took place because of one point as a thought and because I was not breathing here effectively. (the thought that started the whole experience was about me sitting in my room doing internet stuff)

What have I learned, well first of all I corrected myself within the moment and I aligned my head straight with my body as one here stable breathing, and I saw that I could not rush with in such a position but that I simply was here breathing and that I was aware of my environment and that I wasn’t hot and heavy at all, the head ache was gone and so was the back pain. WOW. So everything I was experiencing was a lie?? To myself from myself? Hahaha it is quite revealing if I look at it.

Now the other question is within how many other things in my life do I do this and am not aware of it and within this un awareness fucking up my physical body and the experience of myself here as one and equal within and as breath. God i am fucking up the world in such an experience of myself,

So once again breathing proves to be most effective.

The physical suffers if you do not breathe

The physical suffers if you do not breathe

I went to the pumps at 9:34 in the morning to pump water which is all the way down by the river on the farm and my room is all the way up at the top of the farm lol, so it is about 200m to there and then back, I have to go to the pumps to switch it on and to open the one tanks valve at the bottom to fill up the dam for the animals and all the life there.

Now after doing this walking already for a whole week it is tiring and a lot of walking if one is not breathing effectively, so today at 12:20 when I went down to the pumps for the third time to close the valve for the one tank that is running into the dam I felt my body was exhausted and that I had a head ache and I was really heavy with in my whole physical expression and movement, this was really irritating especially in the heat.

After arriving at the pump and closing it I started walking back up (which is up hill) and I just could not I was out of breath and I was tired and I wanted to stop in the shade and just get myself a breath.

What caused this??

Answer: I was with in the mind walking towards a destination and I wanted to reach the destination immediately (this point causes stress fear and anxiety) because I did not like the current point I was at within the physical, thus with in my walk as the physical I was walking at a phase and with my head leaning forward (not in line with my body) and from my head leaning forward it caused tension on my neck which caused all the head ache and pain in my lower back which made me feel irritated heavy and like giving up with myself and as if I just wanted to stop. The whole experience took place because of one point as a thought and because I was not breathing here effectively. (the thought that started the whole experience was about me sitting in my room doing internet stuff)

What have I learned, well first of all I corrected myself within the moment and I aligned my head straight with my body as one here stable breathing, and I saw that I could not rush with in such a position but that I simply was here breathing and that I was aware of my environment and that I wasn’t hot and heavy at all, the head ache was gone and so was the back pain. WOW. So everything I was experiencing was a lie?? To myself from myself? Hahaha it is quite revealing if I look at it.

Now the other question is within how many other things in my life do I do this and am not aware of it and within this un awareness fucking up my physical body and the experience of myself here as one and equal within and as breath. God i am fucking up the world in such an experience of myself,

So once again breathing proves to be most effective.

money and Self forgiveness

Money and Sf.

Money is that which feeds me, cloth me, bath me, gives me water and that which currently makes it possible to breath in other words to live.

I see with myself and the current situation that I am in with money, the fear of losing all that I have and money, the fear that it can be taken away from me in a second and so fast that if I do not have a back up then I am fucked this life, completely useless with in the current accepted and allowed reality that I live within this world with money.

It works the following way for a human to be able to survive and exist with in the system and have their own little heaven which is money, you have to go to school and have an education behind your name, this will most definitely not be enough as a standard education is simply the foundation to go to a collage and study something that is worth something in the system, in other words something that can make you and others that participate with in capitalism rich and live comfortable, such as lawyers and doctors and researchers and accountants and psychologists and electricians etc.

Then after you have got your degree it still isn’t enough you actually have to get employed with the degree that you have and you have to actually be good at what you do for people to accept you and allow you to make money, this is the simple basic structure and way that normal people have to go through and achieve to be able to be successful or to have a income that allows them to live.

None of the above can be achieved if you do not have money, so if you are within the situation to be able to achieve such educational level then that means your parents have done this before you and their parents before them so that you can be doing this because they all needed money for it all or they worked very hard to get money for you to have an education because they were in a position to be able to get work and work hard for the money so still money is on top of it all.

So now back to me, I find that I have achieved nothing in this life and that at this point I am pretty fucked within the line of education, I keep on trying to find quick and easy ways to do things to make money like playing the lotto or starting my own thing like creating a bug farm to sell the bugs to have a small income, or to breed with something that can make money, I can now say I see why there si such things as zoo’s and animal cruelty and why the shit exists that exist in relation to animal in equality and animal abuse where humans become brutal and mean and sickening towards animals because they all wanted to make money the easy way so why not capture animals and make money off them because it seems so easy, What human does not want to play god with animals, I mean you are giving a human another living being to fuck around with for money if you sell animals and so forth.

So now I am facing myself with in regret and shame and within hopelessness and fear and self pity because I see I have to do things that I do not want to do because it will take time, I have to redo my grade 10 grade 11 and do my grade 12, this requires money which I do not have and no one can really support me with money to do this because everyone is running out of money. The point that is pushing me is the fact that I am useless within the system and with in being able to apply myself practically within the system to do what is required to be done within the best interest for all. I have to gear myself up and equip myself with an education that will allow me to stand with in application in the system, and to be a voice for oneness and equality and an equal money system, to have the papers behind me that says I know what the fuck I am talking about so that others that has education can take me serious and for the law not to be held against me with in the absences of the rights(degrees or diplomas) to do what I am doing such as being a politician.

So I have to re design myself to become a effective being in the system, I have to deliberately equip myself with abilities to take on the current system that exists only as abuse and to stand for life, I need to let go of all the fucking bullshit that the mind is throwing at me such as worries and concerns and fears that neutralizes me if I participate with in it, instead I am writing this out and clearing myself to stand and take direction, not as an energy but as breath, I see I have to careful here for not going into energy because then the application will run in polarities, instead of breathing here relax and breath and apply.

Sf

I forgive myself for accepting and allo9wing myself to fear what I have to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear doing my grades over with in the starting point of what is best for all and to become as effective as I can within the system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking the time to apply myself to become as effective as I can within the system through re doing my high school year.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only consider myself with in what I have to do thus I have fe3ar and concerns and worries

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having to do what is needed with in what is best for all as my personality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to analyze my personality and to see whether my personality is equipped with a special program that can handle what needs to be done in relation to redoing my high school year.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate as the personality and thus as fear and as concerns and as morality

I allow myself to stand as principal and end the personality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear having no money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear money and the make believe power I give it according to who I am as a personality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear standing up from within the current money system as a being with the equipped skills and abilities to take action for life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking self responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed to manifest within the space time that I have here on earth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear doing my high school years over because I fear that I might be wasting other peoples time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear wasting my own time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear wasting my money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear wasting my time which is money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that money is time, which it is in this physical reality, thus I cannot rely on time but only myself as breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to waste money through wasting my own time through not taking direction and self responsibility for what needs to be done and thus postpone and time loop and thus a compound effect takes place where I am at the current moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberately postpone and time loop myself through giving into my fears and concerns and believes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear money and the grip it has physically on me with in reality and the current system

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make money a problem instead of finding a solution and ending the money problem for the sake of all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on other to have money for me to use and to spend and for me to do things with instead of taking self responsibility while I can for the money situation with in my life so I can be effective with in what I do and thus do it to the best of my abilities for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear letting everyone down on earth that relies on me to bring forth a change even though they are not aware of us as destonians and what we do

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame money for the things man does with it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame myself for what I have accepted and allowed to exist within this reality as enslavement to our own creation as money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stand as enslavement to money instead of standing up from within and as enslavement from money to equal money for all to free us from money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give upon myself through the thoughts and ideas I have created within money and how powerless I am with in the current money system and making money that will be sufficient with in supporting myself as Desteni.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be all negative about doing something that will take effort and time to become effective within the system of money and to do what is best for all.

I stop this fucking polarity within me and stand as principal and not mother fucking personality.

I forgive myself for accpepting and allowing myself to concern myself about what other think

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that what other think is relevant at all lol

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be concerned about if I will get permission to do what needs to be done or not, I give myself permission to do what is best for all as long as I am clear and standing with in the principal of oneness and equality and using common sense and self honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that all the money I have will be taken from me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that any money I have ever had belonged to me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself o make money my belongings and thus i enslave myself to it and the design of it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate the idea of being dependant on other for money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the idea of being enslaved to money, thus hating the idea I am empowering the idea and thus I am accepting and allowing the enslavement of money and the abuse we humans cause with it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be self honest about the extent that money exist as within this reality and how we are alive because of money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself with the idea that I am in control within my life with money, which is absolute self deception as everything that exist within my life is held together by money and if there is no money I will starve and die and so will all the beings such as animals and plant life that I have enslaved to be with me which became dependant on the money as I have as well.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be self honest with myself about the actual current situation we are within this reality in relation to money and what I have accepted and allowed to exist through ignorance and bliss.

I breath here,

I allow myself to become self honest with myself and take elf responsibility.