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Monday, January 24, 2011

Battle star galactic and decisions ranting and raving.

Watching battle star galactic I have had a chance to throughout a couple of seasons and a bunch of episodes see how I experience myself and where I find judgment within the story and what is being done.

The major point for me that I saw was making decisions,

Each decisions that had to be made by bill would in fact influence the whole of humanity and the survival of all of humanity since they are the only people that escaped from caprice and now had the responsibility of surviving as a human race.

And all the people had to trust bill even though they do not know him personally or anything about him, they simply had to follow the orders that he gave and everyone had to apply the orders, there is not time to question each order because it could mean the death of all of the human race from caprice or the survival of them all.

Now what I have noticed with myself was how I would judge each decision that he made or that any other person with in the story had an influence on making or later on the decisions that the president came into also and made.

I found that I would judge the decisions and make better decisions that what they have made or so I make myself believe that my decisions are better lol, I would then tense up while watching how each decision would play out and the consequences of the play outs, now either way if it was a right or wrong decision there are consequences that played out and that all they really could do was deal with it through making more decisions with in a perspective of a solution, no one had the time or luxury of thinking negative or giving up or being all shitty because they could be the end of all human kind.

Now I saw that I had to let go of the judgments I made while watching the story and rather stand with in bill’s shoes or anyone that was making the hard ass decisions and see how they made it and why and see all the purposes and reasons and then I simply must not judge it as bad or good decisions but what works in the moment and that is needed to be done.

I saw that it worked like a casino,

When you go to a casino you take money with you and within the casino you have many choices of machines that you can play on, each choice of machine has a different way of presenting itself and how you can win, but they all work the same through putting in your money and pushing a button, so now it all depends on how much money you have because then you can play more choices of machines that can give you bigger prises if you win or you have to stick to the little machines where you might win little by little, but most of the time you win nothing, but you did gain a boost in hope, you had a boost of energy and that you could have won, but maybe next time, the few people that does win makes you want to win and have the energy they are gaining (money ) and thus you come back next time.

Now this is the other part, this part is the decision part, when you go into a casino to play the game to win or lose you constantly need to make a decision that how much are you willing to bet, because the more you bet the more you can win, but you can then also lose a shit load more, but if you win you are home free, or are you going to play for only a bit, and with a lot of hope, I mean in a casino if you lose money it is gone and you are fucked and if you win, well it goes the other way.

So now you have a crew (family) and you have to make the decisions, the hard ones and you have to really take the risk because it is all on you no matter which way it goes, if you make a decision to play all your money and you win (this is where bill had to go against everything the crew said or the president and make a military call that seemed so wrong), the Family will love you and cheer you and be there for you, but if you lose the family will hate you and resent you and be really pissed at you, but still it is one decision that goes both ways.

I see Battle star Galactica as a casino – with in every decision they make on the story they can either win or lose and they have to make many big bets and many small ones to get the big ones. And so i see that within each decision it will be best to be self honest and use common sense and apply 1 + 1 = 2. To not judge at all as what is right or wrong but what the fuck works, it is time to let go of the morality

The current system is a casino and we all are playing it daily, either you wake up luck or not, you can be killed by a bus passing the street or die of old age, who knows unless you become certainty and stop the casino game, battle star galactic shows how the casino game is played with in the politics and the military and the civilians and all the bullshit on a smaller scale. Instead of keeping it simple.

Simple would have been to make a decision to firstly unite all the people as one thing between all the ships, not having separate governments and shit, to care for each other and to in spite of everything be unconditional towards each other and fucking change, I mean they all live on ships in space with limited stuff and still they disregard each other and prefer to play games.

Stop hating the fucking cylons (machines and the system that is created in the humans own image and likeness as enslavement) and stand one and equal as them and change from there on, I mean even after the cylons try to live together the humans still rebel instead of learning the lessons.

Well I will end here; this was a cool rant and rave for me,

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Time your Creator

Time/ your creator

I feel myself falling behind time, with in this falling behind time I see all that is slipping through my fingers, slowly but surely, I see the past events reoccurring in the same way just different points, then I feel the regret and the compounding effect within me happening, of how I am the creator of this and how I am allowing this to exist, happen.

After I see and realize this point, I feel powerless against time, once the time is lost it is gone, never to be re taken or gained. It is over and gone I missed the point, and making peace with it seems to me like dishonesty, like if I make peace with what I have openly excepted and allowed to happen then making peace with it feels wrong, I feel I have to gain (Gian) it back. This is fear of consequences, fearing facing the same point over and over till there is an ultimate price to pay, which will indefinably happen, equal effect.

TC = Time Creates

This is a fact not a fear factor.

The time I have now is here. I have to let go of the past and what I have accepted and allowed. I make peace with this; this is the only way with in common sense to move oneself again, stop, breath and forgives self.
I am equal to time. Time is my creation, I can only fear time if I am in separation of time.

I am the clock, a clock never stops moving, why am I not moving- separation, seeing time more than myself, giving into the idea of time,

I stop. Breath is the only key, stop the thoughts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall behind time, separating myself from time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from time, with in this fearing time seeing it
more than me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear time and see it more than myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see time more than myself, I am the creator of time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking self responsibility for myself with in time as time,
constantly moving

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear moving myself as time, never stopping, equal to time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear standing equal to time, seeing it as hard work

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the fact that I have no choice to stand as time, the test of
time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have already lost within myself towards time, I stand up

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take time for granted

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to still worry about time, indicating fear and enslavement to time

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a slave to time, not standing one and equal as time, in breath here as Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to in time get lazy, participating in the mind, mental realities.
Quantum time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move myself with in quantum time in and as the mind, while in
the real reality the real time is creating, what I am missing and losing awareness of

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself, already creating the timeloop to face this point
again in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regret judging myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to out of fear do the self forgiveness, fearing the regret and
judgement will time loop me

I STOP here