Animal Abuse

Animal abuse

Today I had a cool experience with my horse Titan. (+- a year ago)

At horses which is at about 6 o’clock, I went into Titans stable and I started preparing his stable. I got his bedding in and his hay to eat, then after a while I heard foods ready and all the horses got excited, I went to fetch the food and took it to Titan. As Titan was eating I grabbed a brush and started brushing him, he swung out his right foot, (which I find amazing that he is able to do that) and he almost kicked me, I reacted with in that moment and got tired of this, he does this quite a lot, and with in me reacting I lost me here and I hit Titan with the brush and kicked his foot out of spitefulness, going through me how does that feel huh? This did not move him at ALL he just stood there and tried to kick me again.

I breathed and just continued brushing him, I was angry and experienced myself as being incapable to control my horse and that I am in danger now all the time, I brushed him with in fear, and I saw the point of why I am in fear now, because instead of breathing and seeing the point my horse is revealing to me with in that moment which was that I brushed him to get done with it not to actually be with him unconditionally.

And he stood by his point, not giving into me reacting towards him, I found that my horse as that moment was more directive and unconditional that what I will ever be this I experienced with in me.

After wards as I sat on the chair outside his stable and looked at him, he stared at me, and I went into questioning him, I stopped and I said okay Titan I forgive you. He had no after math of whoa I did something wrong like I did.

I sat there and all the sudden this point reveals to me in a single breath. A past question that I always asked myself came up, the question was- How can people abuse horses like they do, and how did people get to abuse my horse like this, if they did not abuse my horse he would not have been this way towards me. And then the present moment of what just happened came to me aligning with the past questions, where I now see how people got to the point of abusing horse (animals), fear and reactions, through this loosing self entirely and awareness, but still aware actually.
And then they act upon their specific believe of themselves and who they believe themselves to be, meaning if the horse dares to kick you, you will react because your ego has just been challenged by an animal which people see as less then themselves, this is the fear also, actually realizing that the state you as the human being exist as in this current moment is less than an animal and this can not be shown to anyone not even self, therefore you will attack the animal out of reaction and fear.

No matter the cost of what you do to the animal, the actions will be taken from the starting point of spitefulness or stimulation- the stimulation will be gaining that back which you feel you have just lost (Ego) so through stimulating the horse through abusing the horse as torturing, which will stimulate you as the human because you feel you are gaining revenge and power back.

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