The scariest Movie that out ranks all other scary movies ever made is
still in the making - you are playing your part right now. it's about
earth being destroyed and abused and mutilated by loving caring human
beings (no one ever admits they are
evil, yet the world only shows us everyone is evil) , all the animals are
abused, tortured and used for profit, all plant life is being abuse and
used for profit, earth is more than half way dead already, and yet
everyone is simply sitting back and watching, waiting, and when a
solution hits them in the face, they say it wont work, it cant - really
scary shit, will the ending be as we all were made to believe all
endings end in movies in a happy way, or will this movie be the final
one. I give you the solution - www.equalmoney.org, it is not a movie - that's the real scary part. its for real really happening right now. Boe!!
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Tuesday, April 24, 2012
The scariest Movie that out ranks all other scary movies
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Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Fear of Snakes biting me and self forgiveness.
Fear of Snakes biting me and self forgiveness.
I work with
a lot of animals on the farm, some are snakes, others are lizards (big one’s)
and some are our normal daily farm companions such as the dogs or cats and the parrots
we have.
When I work
with the animals I have this constant expectation/fear that the animal will suddenly attack
me or harm me.
The Design of Fearing your own Fear - Now on Eqafe for something cool to get perspective on.
Snake venom and Fear.
With snakes
I fear that they will bite me with their venom and I will get sick and
basically be poisoned, and I never know if it is deadly or just a bite.
Snakes are
sneaky and fast when it comes to them attacking you in their self defense of
course, it isn’t personal at all (obviously).
So when I
catch them I do so with gloves and care to not get bitten, while I hold them
they try and get out of my hand and at the same time some of them actually
bites the glove. , when this happens I go into fear/anxiety and I start
gripping them tighter and tighter so they cannot escape and bite me.
I do not
like to experience myself with snakes this way, I enjoy animals a lot. but with
the fear it compromises my communication with them and how I am with them and
how they see me. As I have fear towards them they can see it in my behavior and thus I am a danger
to them.
Self forgiveness on snakes and venom.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a snake’s bite.
I forgive myself
that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to fear a snakes
bite has no purpose but for me to be ready in fight or flight mode to harm the
snake as soon as I feel threatened.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in fight or flight mode as fear when working with snakes.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in fear when working with snakes
through accepting and allowing back chat with in me about the snake.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with in back chat with
in my mind.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with in the back chat “
this snake will bite me and then I might die” in my mind and thus accepting and
allowing myself to be moved by fear and working with the snake in fear.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the snake’s venom.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying of a snake’s venom.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved and directed by the fear
that I have created within me of dying of a snakes venom through back chat and
thoughts with in my mind.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to Fear dying of a snake’s venom and
that I will be seen as weak from dying of a snake’s venom.
I forgive myself
for accepting and allowing myself to fear dying from a snakes venom and that I
have accepted and allowed the back chat “ I will look weak if I die from a
snakes venom” to exist within me.
I forgive myself
that I have accepting and allowing myself to fear snakes because I fear that my
ego will get hurt if I die from a snakes venom.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to work with snakes from the starting
point of ego and energy.
I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to work with snakes from the
starting point of ego thus,
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to fuel the ego every time I catch/caught a snake and handling it and feeling successful
at it and thus.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel
powerful and great because I was able to handle a snake while others can't.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel proud when I have successfully
worked with a snake without getting bitten, thus creating the fear of getting
bitten as that will burst the ego bubble that was created in relation to the
starting point of working with snakes.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attache a feeling to catching a snake, instead of simply doing what needs to be done.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to want/need/desire to catch a snake from teh starting point of fueling my ego.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to work with snakes from the starting point of comparing myself with others and their capabilities and creating it into an ego thing.
The secrets of competition - now on Eqafe for more support and assistance on the ego.
Realizations.
I realize
that I have to change my starting point, that the solution is not to stop
working with snakes but to stop the starting point as ego as energy.
I realize
that if I work with snakes from the starting point of ego/energy I create polarities
to exist within me, as I feel proud and better than and greater than others I
create the polarity/opposite that If I
am not able to work with snakes then I am not greater, better than others and
this is where the fear comes in, the fear is that If I get bitten by a snake
and get poisoned and die that the Idea I created about myself as the snake
handler that can handle snakes where others can’t that makes me apparently
better is popped/destroyed and then I will be exposed as the fear and being
weak.
The design of Polarity - Now on Eqafe for more assistance and support on Polarities.
Self corrective statements/applications.
When and as
I see myself go into fear of a snake biting me, I stop and I breathe and I
remain here with in and as the physical as breath and see what is happening with my eyes
and not of my mind as that is not real.
When and as
I see myself going to take a snake away, and any form of energy comes up I stop
and I breathe, and I allow myself to not participate with in polarities and
self sabotage.
When and as
I see myself approaching the situation with in and as my ego I stop and I
breathe and bring myself back to earth and I move myself in practicality and
consideration instead of a feeling and an idea.
When I am
asked to remove a snake I will go get my gloved and a bucket for protection,
because I realized that I am flesh and blood like anybody else and I do not
have special abilities that makes me immune to snake venom, and thus I will
approach the snake in care and stability in and as breathe, breathing instead
of thinking and charging my fear and ego with energy.
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Wednesday, March 21, 2012
I do not feel like doing it right now and Self Forgiveness.
A week ago I had a cool point to write about,
as I wanted to write about the point I sat down at my PC and I looked at my
screen and I said to myself in my mind as back chat, “I do not feel like doing this right now”, I will do it in an hour, for now I just want to rest a bit, so
I started watching an episode of something.
(all hyperlinks on words leads to
support on the info and gives insights and are really awesome, so if
you are interested simply click the hyperlink and follow - thanks)
An hour later I was tired and decided to go to
bed, I told myself I will write it tomorrow after work.
It has been a week and I can not even remember
what it was I wanted to write about, I now have regret, this regret isnt big,
but it is till with in me, and every time I do this I can see the regret
growing.
here is a really cool intervie on what makes writing important - The Importance of Writing.
Because it was an awesome point, I remember
that, and I knew that if I wrote it and shared it I would have cleared the
point for myself and I would have had clarity and authority with in the point instead of being directed by it, and a better
understanding of myself and how this reality works, it goes a far way, and my
blog could have helped others out there equally and supported them as I
supported myself, but it did not happen.
I sat down tonight at the PC and I said: fuck
this I am doing it, enough of the regret and postponement and I know I am the
one creating my experience of myself.
It has been proven to myself over and over
again that the back chat “I do not feel like doing it right now” creates time-loops and this I am sabotaging myself and all of existence as myself.
Self forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
the back chat with in me “I do not feel like doing it right now” to exist with
in me as self sabotage.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage myself through the back chat “I do not feel like doing it
right now” to exist with in me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to have thoughts and back chat exist with in me that I have
accepted and allowed to decide for me what to do, instead of realizing that the
back chat as my secret mind is in fact sabotaging me from changing to keep the
mind consciousness in place.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed my secret mind as my back chat that I accepted and allowed to exist
with in me to decide for me based on how I feel what I want to do and not do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to move and direct myself according to how I feel, instead of
breathing and remaining here in and as the physical, as the physical does not
function on how it feels, and so I realize that if I breathe I can move as the
physical as one as equals.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to move and direct myself according to how I feel, thus I
realize that with in this I am accepting and allowing myself to limit myself
with in what I can do as my full potential as the physical.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage myself with in talking to myself in my mind as the secret
mind with in back chat.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to see and make myself belief that all the reasons and all the
justifications that my mind gives me for postponing to write about a point as
being valid.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to write first and then relax after I have written the point out
and stand clear with in myself and thus have no regret and no time-loop.
So I have see and realize that if I have to do
anything in my reality according to how I feel (either good or bad as both polarities require each-other to exist and thus both will follow up on each-other) that I will in the end only end
up sabotaging myself and my world, this is common sense if you take anything in
life and bring it back to this point.
For instance, will you have food and water and
clothes and shelter if you had to do everything according to how you feel? No! Because
no one feels like going to work but they have to, no one feels like surviving
all their life’s but currently they have to, till we have an Equal Money System in place, then we can start living life instead of surviving it.
I have now come to the point where I missed
the point I wanted to write about and instead I now had to first write about
this point to clear this out for myself to be able to be clear on it so I can
when the point comes up life the self forgiveness and direct myself with in
understanding and responsibility.
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