I am Life. I am (a)life

We all have this weird believe that life is made to live, and to live life you must have fun and do everything you can to say you were alive. 

Yet we miss such a simple point with in all of this.

I have always lived as if living is something outside of myself, something that I need to go do, something that I need to find and search for, something that I have to find in someone else or something else.

But the simple point I never considered was, I AM LIFE, and thus I do not need to go out there to find it, I do not need to feel anything to confirm to me that I am life, I simply am. 

I am a Life (alive) part of all life as one as equal in all ways, no matter what happens to me my physical body, it can never be separated form all that is here, it will always remain as the physical here, at an atom level or even deeper than the atom, there where everything is in all ways connected or even simply one, where even death is part of this oneness. It is most certainly not spiritual oneness as people see oneness, that is delusional shit.

So the believe and the idea and the concept of having to do something to feel and be alive is actually just that, a believe, a idea, a concept, it isn’t real, because you are it in itself, LIFE.

I am Life, and through this understanding I can see how I have separated myself as life, not physically separating myself  but in my mind, mentally and through this separation I have abused myself and miss guided myself in doing and participating in things that only supports the separation further and in the end result in never finding life, never feeling fulfilled, and as it I made something of myself, because it is always out there, a projection of my mind. 

And projections is always better and more than the real deal, so we will never be satisfied, we actual create our own misery this way. 

But now with Desteni, I have learned to stop and breath, to focus on what is here and to be with myself, to create a relationship with myself that is effective and supportive with myself, not a mental relationship, a physical one, with participating with myself here in and as the physical in each breath in each moment, not going out to find it out there.

For instance, I used to say I am alive and living life to the fullest when I got drunk or high or when I found a girlfriend or when I did something different and exciting, but that runs out and then I am just again depressed and searching for the next thing.

Now, I do what is here, I water the trees, I look after the animals, I care for the birds and bugs, I spend my time with myself as all life as me here, one and equal. I must say, this is something so basic and simple and yet it has never had any side effect of depression or feeling down or sad or any of that crap.

Because the separation in the mind has been stopped in many ways, and I actually told my mind through this correction that I am here, not out there, so it is okay to be here with me as all that is here in and as the physical one and equal as who I am as life. 

realizing or understnding this point also gives the realization/understanding that I have to take self responsibility for myself as life and this world/universe. 

Desteni and Equal Money is the only way, that works if applied practically.

Following your excitement is the shortest, fastest, straightest path.

OK so many people claim that this is the way, following only what excites you, and this way you will have a successful happy life.

first look at what makes it possible for something such as excitement to exist, a polarity point is needed. The polarity is boredom/apathy/absence of energy anyone of them. 

And obviously something in your life is creating both point of polarity as the root cause

So people that follow their excitement has a polarity existent somewhere in their life, this causes people to go to the limits, to try things to cheer them up and make them happy, usually people that are board and seeking excitement/energy – just like a drug addict that needs his next hit, will do anything for it. 

And as you always follow only what excites you, you will run out of thing that excites you, again just like a drug addict, first you start with weed, and then you go to stronger drugs. 

The excitement becomes a addition, and when the excitement isn’t here, you will experience the polarity in either one of the following boredom/apathy/absence of energy. And you do not want to experience the polarity; you have identified it as being bad, that something is wrong with you. So you seek the next point of excitement. 

At this point you are looking for a higher drug of excitement to suppress that which cause the polarity – the cause usually being Money, system life in general such as your job, your family problems, your relationships, and all your fears you walk around with. 

The excitement makes you forget all about it for a few moments. 

So as we can see, excitement is but only a way to hide and to not have to face the fear, the apathy or any other cause for it all. 

Excitement usually leads to a short path and a fast one, that part is correct but not as you would like it to be, many people die of heart attacks through the highs and lows of energy in the extremes that people participate with in, feeling board the one moment and in fear and the next you are jumping of building to follow the excitement, this is a electrical shock to the body and will cause harm in time. 

I myself used to do this, usually I found myself to be bored and wanted to do something that makes me feel alive, I used to go find the excitement in new relationships, first the hunt, then the catch, then letting the catch go, then again and again, I started developing heart problems from all the stress and tension I gained through all the moment s of excitements, and I was but 19 years old back then. 

I stopped this point of excitement later on as I gained the understanding of the polarities and how I am a slave to the energy of it, I applied Self Forgiveness on both points, the positive and negative. I realized with in this after applying the Self Forgiveness that I remain, with no energy, so I found that I could still exists without the energy and enjoy myself here as the physical one and equal. 

I searched for the excitement to feel alive mainly, not realizing that I am life and only yet, have to realize it.

I still find myself when in a state of fear or apathy that i go into excitement to suppress it, I usually take a quick run, or jump into the pool while its ice cold, or I play extremely with the dogs. I saw it as a release of getting rid of the fear etc, but in fact was simply suppressing it and putting more layers over it. 

So following your excitement as the shortest, fastest, straightest path is self deception as it is separation and enslavement to two polarities. 

The real point is to look at why you seek excitement and why you desire to rather suppress the apathy and boredom and fear, rather than changing the actual points that put the polarities into play. 

Even if you cannot now immediately change your life situation with money or family or whatever it is you hide from within extreme energy such as excitement (remember it’s no different from drugs), you can and must always first start with yourself. 

Because many people believe it is what you do that determines who you are. 

But in fact through actual physical consideration it cannot work like that, because for you to do something it must already exist within you, thus it is who you are that determines what you do.

So clear the inside, and the outside will clear through your application in time in the physical as the physical functions one and equal. 

I started with Desteni and the Desteni I process and on the Desteni forums through sharing reading and applying self forgiveness and reading the material there on how energy works and enslavement and the design of the human as systems and programming.