We all have
this weird believe that life is made to live, and to live life you must have
fun and do everything you can to say you were alive.
Yet we miss
such a simple point with in all of this.
I have
always lived as if living is something outside of myself, something that I need
to go do, something that I need to find and search for, something that I have
to find in someone else or something else.
But the
simple point I never considered was, I AM LIFE, and thus I do not need to go
out there to find it, I do not need to feel anything to confirm to me that I am
life, I simply am.
I am a Life
(alive) part of all life as one as equal in all ways, no matter what happens to
me my physical body, it can never be separated form all that is here, it will
always remain as the physical here, at an atom level or even deeper than the
atom, there where everything is in all ways connected or even simply one, where
even death is part of this oneness. It is most certainly not spiritual oneness
as people see oneness, that is delusional shit.
So the
believe and the idea and the concept of having to do something to feel and be
alive is actually just that, a believe, a idea, a concept, it isn’t real,
because you are it in itself, LIFE.
I am Life,
and through this understanding I can see how I have separated myself as life,
not physically separating myself but in
my mind, mentally and through this separation I have abused myself and miss
guided myself in doing and participating in things that only supports the separation
further and in the end result in never finding life, never feeling fulfilled,
and as it I made something of myself, because it is always out there, a
projection of my mind.
And
projections is always better and more than the real deal, so we will never be
satisfied, we actual create our own misery this way.
But now
with Desteni, I have learned to stop and breath, to focus on what is here and
to be with myself, to create a relationship with myself that is effective and supportive
with myself, not a mental relationship, a physical one, with participating with
myself here in and as the physical in each breath in each moment, not going out
to find it out there.
For
instance, I used to say I am alive and living life to the fullest when I got
drunk or high or when I found a girlfriend or when I did something different
and exciting, but that runs out and then I am just again depressed and
searching for the next thing.
Now, I do
what is here, I water the trees, I look after the animals, I care for the birds
and bugs, I spend my time with myself as all life as me here, one and equal. I
must say, this is something so basic and simple and yet it has never had any
side effect of depression or feeling down or sad or any of that crap.
Because the
separation in the mind has been stopped in many ways, and I actually told my
mind through this correction that I am here, not out there, so it is okay to be
here with me as all that is here in and as the physical one and equal as who I
am as life.
realizing or understnding this point also gives the realization/understanding that I have to take self responsibility for myself as life and this world/universe.
Desteni and Equal Money is the only way, that works if applied practically.
