I am Life. I am (a)life

We all have this weird believe that life is made to live, and to live life you must have fun and do everything you can to say you were alive. 

Yet we miss such a simple point with in all of this.

I have always lived as if living is something outside of myself, something that I need to go do, something that I need to find and search for, something that I have to find in someone else or something else.

But the simple point I never considered was, I AM LIFE, and thus I do not need to go out there to find it, I do not need to feel anything to confirm to me that I am life, I simply am. 

I am a Life (alive) part of all life as one as equal in all ways, no matter what happens to me my physical body, it can never be separated form all that is here, it will always remain as the physical here, at an atom level or even deeper than the atom, there where everything is in all ways connected or even simply one, where even death is part of this oneness. It is most certainly not spiritual oneness as people see oneness, that is delusional shit.

So the believe and the idea and the concept of having to do something to feel and be alive is actually just that, a believe, a idea, a concept, it isn’t real, because you are it in itself, LIFE.

I am Life, and through this understanding I can see how I have separated myself as life, not physically separating myself  but in my mind, mentally and through this separation I have abused myself and miss guided myself in doing and participating in things that only supports the separation further and in the end result in never finding life, never feeling fulfilled, and as it I made something of myself, because it is always out there, a projection of my mind. 

And projections is always better and more than the real deal, so we will never be satisfied, we actual create our own misery this way. 

But now with Desteni, I have learned to stop and breath, to focus on what is here and to be with myself, to create a relationship with myself that is effective and supportive with myself, not a mental relationship, a physical one, with participating with myself here in and as the physical in each breath in each moment, not going out to find it out there.

For instance, I used to say I am alive and living life to the fullest when I got drunk or high or when I found a girlfriend or when I did something different and exciting, but that runs out and then I am just again depressed and searching for the next thing.

Now, I do what is here, I water the trees, I look after the animals, I care for the birds and bugs, I spend my time with myself as all life as me here, one and equal. I must say, this is something so basic and simple and yet it has never had any side effect of depression or feeling down or sad or any of that crap.

Because the separation in the mind has been stopped in many ways, and I actually told my mind through this correction that I am here, not out there, so it is okay to be here with me as all that is here in and as the physical one and equal as who I am as life. 

realizing or understnding this point also gives the realization/understanding that I have to take self responsibility for myself as life and this world/universe. 

Desteni and Equal Money is the only way, that works if applied practically.

How was I able to hear the Desteni message?

How was I able to hear the Desteni message?

Let’s first look into my past a little bit. I am from South Africa, and I grew up as an Afrikaner in a Christian society. I sang Jesus songs and gospels and I prayed with the whole school every day in the mornings and evenings. I had a pretty stable life in terms of money that my parents had. 

My parents always gave me options to be a bit more free, like I did not have to go to church, and I could change my religion if I wanted to, and I could believe in aliens if I wanted to, and I could do what I wanted from that kind of perspective, whereas the rest of my cultural group would obviously always disagree with me and my parents because they only believed in god and Jesus as savior. 

So I kept all the stuff that would seem weird and out of place to myself, and I participated in all kinds of different stuff by myself. I had mentioned a few points in school to friends and they immediately labeled me as being weird, for example I would say that I believe there are aliens.

As I grew up and learned more about spiritualism,the Christian religion, Buddhism, and all kinds of stuff like healing self with Reiki and crystals, working with clearing energy, card reading, chakras, and testing prayer and meditation, I found that nothing worked…ever.

I got tired of it all within myself. I was actually about to give in, meaning, I was about to decide on one point such as Christianity and just stick to it, because It is what my culture subscribes to you if you do not want to be abused and if you want to have a girlfriend and get sex someday. So this became one of my primary options. 

As I have tested for myself during these few years in my life with all these different things, I came to a really simple answer for myself about it all: it does not work.

So I went on with my life as usual, seeing all the suffering in the world and seeing all the daily shit happening, going to school and studying and reading, plus partying, playing around and drinking, and also playing PC games and PS2 games – I would just do this same routine all the time. 

And then as I got older and continued with school, I found a really interesting point within myself: I have to decide what I want to become and do as a job for the rest of my life pretty soon. This point brought up a lot of stuff for me as I looked at all the careers there are in this world, and I realized I do not want to do any of them. 

And looking at the careers that there is and my limited choices, I could see how fucked up our world is because of the type of careers that exist, and that I am actually forced to have to do them until I die. 

At the same time that I faced this point and had to make decisions I went with my parents to an old friend of theirs. We used to visit this old friend every few years but I was young and could not really remember these visits clearly, but it was Bernard and his kids and other people usually. 

Visiting Bernard and them wasn’t about what they were doing; to me it was all about hearing the latest news in what’s happening in their lives, because going to Bernard was always about really completely different things than where I am from, where all is about Christians and god. It was about everything and how everything works and functions, and obviously the portal. 

Now back then I wasn’t hearing Desteni and what was said to be able to apply it. I was simply listening out of my own curiosity.

So as we visited Bernard and them, they talked about many things such as the Dimensions and the heavens, and about equal money, as money is the problem in this world. We also looked at individual people and their processes such as my own. At the visit we all discussed the exact point I was facing: what to do with my future in a world that is fucked up. Coincidence? I think not.

So with everyone there, my parents, Bernard, the Portal, and I, we came to great points on how I can direct my life to become a success and to make the best of it. I decided to leave school and do homeschooling for my last two years in school, and in that time I also work, earned money, and study to become an electrician.

I went back home after this and I started applying myself in this new direction. The reason I wanted to take the path of becoming an electrician was because it is a practical job and it is one of the most important ones, as electricity is that which we cannot live without currently and thus it will be a stable job, meaning there will always be work. 

So I finished my first year doing homeschooling and did not do any money earning work in this year. I basically became lazy and was unable to apply myself with discipline. I started my last year in homeschooling but the shit hit the fan: I got my work three months late as there were issues happening; the government wanted to shut down private schooling and keep all kids in public schools. So I quit and left my last year.

I told my parents I would continue the next year. In the meantime I started working for money; I became a waiter and did this full-time. I paid rent to my parents and still lived with them. I realized with this happening in my life I was not going to make it in the money system and that I may need to consider just doing this forever.

I started drinking and partying more and got myself a girlfriend. I was living the life as they say - I had a home, I had money, I had a car, I had a girlfriend, I had more than basic needs. Why should I then finish high school and study further? I completely forgot everything we discussed at our visit with Bernard and them - all the practical points and really relevant points. 

After a few months I just could not do what I was doing much longer. I knew I had to get out of the situation I am in. It might sound and seem fun, but being in it like that till you die, that can’t be life, that can’t be everything, and the reason we live. 

So one day I got an email from Leslie John, Bernard’s son. He told me that they were getting a farm and that I should come. 

I was excited - this is the change I was looking for in my life. I knew what I was going to, and I knew what Desteni is all about, such as oneness and equality and self-forgiveness, etc. 

I wanted to go to the farm and work there. My intention was not to do the process but only go for six months or so and then come back; as I was going to work there I was going to earn money for my work. 

So I arranged with my parents,and I got to go to the farm and work there. I told my mother I will come back in six months and then finish my high school the next year. 

So I am at the farm. I started working and I started participating, but something unexpectedly happened: as I was working on the farm and living with the group of people on the farm, I eventually ended up in some conversations, and obviously I met people from overseas. 

The people I met from overseas were really cool to talk with. It was different. They talked about stuff I never considered in my daily life, such as ending hunger and starvation, taking self-responsibility for yourself and why, and then the random conversations I ended up in with where Bernard would talk about certain points, and I would end up being amazed about how much sense what he had to say had. 

I got hooked on the conversations and not long afterwards - two or three weeks into them - I made a new decision: I want to stay and apply myself with Desteni, because the common sense that was being discussed was so clear and so real I simply could not deny it. 

I realized that my starting point for being at the farm was purely for money and self-interest. I wasn’t there for the process or participation in the Desteni message, yet what was spoken and discussed and applied by the people there was something that I could not deny - it is happening - Desteni is here and Desteni makes sense. 

I mean, I was struggling with so many emotional things inside of myself, with so many thoughts and stuff for such a long time, and here I suddenly have tools to help me to take self-responsibility for my own shit: self-forgiveness and breathing, being self-honest with myself, using common sense and learning what that is. It was all tools that I could physically apply and practice. No waiting or praying or hoping for something to happen. 

And so hearing the Desteni message was really easy. I first had to let go of my ego; I really had a big one. I felt I was invincible and nothing could touch me. But there I was, on the farm, because I had nothing and got fucked by myself and by not having any self-discipline. That was a real ego burst; pop goes the bubble. So myself-honesty was that I am not as great as I think I am. I needed to ask for help, and Desteni was the real help - actual physical help. 

So I had to get my ego bubble burst, and only then was I able to hear the Desteni message.

Capitalism is a infinite system designed on a finite Planet. do the math.

Capitalism is a infinite system designed in a finite world.

One of the great things about Capitalism is, that it can grow forever, it is designed that anyone that is capable of/to get their hands on resources to exploit it and make money, may do so, it is a never ending growing system, more jobs are created every day. 

Obviously I am being sarcastic above, but yet, I am serious about Capitalism that it is a system, an economical system that is designed to produce infinite resources to people who has finite needs in a world with finite resources, we live on a planet that has limited resources.

And most of all our resources that we are exploiting for profits and creating jobs, is fossil fuels and things like metal, trees, coal, OIL, all of these and many many more are resources that we are sucking out of earth so fast, no one can really keep count, and it took these natural resources billions of years to become what they are, we are finishing it in a couple of hundred.

So you really have to get shit scared here, because you should realize how fucked WE are right now, because you live in a money system that can’t stop growing with very limited resources that took billions of years to form, and what the fuck will happen when planet earth is out of these resources, especially OIL, it has reached its peak point in the seventies, this is forty years later, where are we now with oil, why aren’t we openly being informed about what is happening to our planets resources. 

Why are we not question anything we do in our daily lives, as yourself a simple question, where does my socks come from that I wear, and what was required for my socks to end up on my feet, will the process that my socks went through be able to continue in that same process for eternity or not, if not then you know you are wearing a product that is part of bringing an end to the resources on earth and thus the destruction of life.

Really I am being serious here with the point of socks, it is so little and yet it has everything to do with everything. 

I am simply giving perspective on the point of capitalism of being a suicide system - literally, our economy and life styles are designed to be something that can grow forever on a planet that has limited everything and that is based on balance, balance between everything here on earth, we already took that balance out many years ago, we are in the stages of consequences. 

So I am saying, buy the Equal Money system volume one book on Eqafe store, and start with the re-Education of yourself to give yourself the knowledge that is power when practically applied to be able to change this life, so we might still have children in the future and a world for them to life on. 

This has to happen before 2020. You decide right now. It is that simple. Start with reading this book, visit the forums and websites and educate yourself, those currently in power has all the knowledge and that is how they are controlling and brainwashing people to remain paralyzed. 

You are not powerless, Desteni and Equal Money is here, join us.