2012 Sex and Success

Success within sexuality in ways that support effective relationships is a must if you want to give Your new Love experience the best chance to be what you always dreamt it could be. Both partners should listen to these recordings and learn to live it in support of each other.

My Near Death Experience and the tunnel.

My Near Death Experience and the tunnel.

When I was eight years old, I went on vacation with my family, we went from Johannesburg to Cape town, on the way to cape town we had plenty of stops and eventually had to sleep over somewhere at a Bed and Breakfast. It is a twelve hour drive and depending on the season it is hot or cold, usually we go when it is hot so the drive feels extra long.

At the Bed and breakfast stop where we stayed over for the night we kept ourselves entertained, me and my brothers were running around and playing touches, it got intense as the energy got more and more and more fun. I ran as fast as I could to not get touched because I did not want to be the monster that if he touches you, you are it and have to touch someone else again to be the monster.

While we were playing this and running around I thought it would be great to run up and down the stairs to get away from my brother to not touch me. As I made it down the stairs I saw I would be cornered and in that moment I had like a energertic experience of anxiousness, I had to get out of this corner. My brother already made it down and touched me, so now I was the Monster.

I ran in excitement up the stairs reaching for his leg to touch him, in a single moment I hit my shin against the sharp edge of the one stair, I thought I was okay but the pain was extensive, I climbed to the top and fell down, I was gone. The next moment I was grasping really hard in one breath, I was lying in my dad’s arms and my brothers was standing around me and my mother was standing in front of me and my dad with a bucket.

I felt ice cold and looked around me as it I was in a different world. I asked my mother what happened in between me hitting my shin and ending up in my dad’s arms on the chair with water over my face.

My mother told me that they found me on the floor a few seconds after I hit my shin and I was stone cold out, I want breathing or moving at all, I was like “dead so to say.

I then realized what I was experiencing the whole time while they were reviving me lol. I told my mom and dad that I was in a tunnel, a very long one, and I was moving faster than speed of light towards this tunnel, I did not have a body or anything, It felt like I only had eye’s that could see. I felt strange after waking up, like who are these people around me and what is this reality I am in, because while I was in this tunnel, NOTHING else existed, I had no memory, I had no thought, I had nothing or any concept of earth and the physical reality, I did not even think of god or angels. It was just me going really fast towards this light, I never made it, just as I was almost in the light my mom chucked water over me and my body shocked me back.

A few minutes after I woke up and told my dad and mom and brothers what I experienced I told them, I wish you did not bring me back, being in that tunnel going to that light and only me existing there was the greatest experience ever.

For that whole vacation I felt like I did not want to be here, because of the experience I had in the tunnel, that experience made everything else seem like no comparison. For years I wondered about the tunnel and the white light and where the fuck did this take place?

I mean it isn’t like I left my body and went into a dark tunnel and was being beamed up or down or sideways to somewhere. It just doesn’t make sense.

I started questioning this experience and what the fuck it means, because as I got older I started learning about the white light and god being light and all.

My mother and dad said that I was on my way to heaven, But I asked myself, if I was on my way to heaven would I not have had a thought about god, or like an expectation that I will now meet god up there or some white light beings.

I was completely empty in that tunnel, god Jesus Buddha etc, no one existed, it was me and my eyes and the tunnel and the light. And I soon started realizing that the only way I could have been revived or brought back is, if I wasn't really dead or gone at all but that my body was simply in shock and everything stopped for a while to re establish itself.

And the tunnel and white light was simply a experience in y mind, it wasn’t real, I created this idea from stories my grandmother told me about god being a ball of light and I created my own idea about how I go to heaven when it ever should happen, and so I experienced my own mind created idea while my body was re adjusting and getting itself together from the shock.

So basically if I did die that night I would not have been going to heaven or to hell I simply would have died and as I said, I had nothing inside of me from earth, no memory, no thought, nothing, so I would not even have taken any of that with me, and thus, if I had to meet god I would not even have known who the fuck he would be.

Because god and the idea of a god is simply a memory, a thought that is kept alive through thinking and participating in the mind. And when you die, the mind and conciseness dies to, it does not go with you, all this spiritual shit dies when you die, nothing remain, So this led to me questioning a lot of things and what the fuck is real, why did I simply not have any idea of earth or anything with me in that tunnel, does that mean I separated myself form life through the mind to such an extent that I would simply have disappeared into my own bubble where I would stay with myself for eternity?

Till I realize myself as life one and equal. Or would I simply be gone, nothing As only the eyes remained. Then I discovered Desteni, and this is where I got my answers though common sense and Self Forgiveness..

I existed as the mind and thus I would have died as the mind as consciousness, and for a brief moment I saw who I was in complete separation of life and all that is here though the mind. That what I lived to thus far back then at the age of 8 wasn’t real. Because who I was in that tunnel as who I have created myself was nothing.

I diminished myself to exist in the mind instead of being here as the physical as all life one and equal.

so re-birthing self in and as the physical as all that is here one and equal, taking self responsibility for self is self change as life.

Desteni is the Solution and gives all the tools for oneself to correct self.

Lost on South African roads.

I went to the beach with a couple of other people; it is about an hour and a half’s drive if the roads are clear and calm.

It was pretty calm and clear and we stopped at a garage to have some breakfast, after that we went straight to the beach and hit the water, it was cloudy and looked like rain, that did not stop us, so we ran into the ocean and hit the incoming waves.

The water was surprisingly warm and enjoyable, the sun also started coming out a bit and it was getting hotter. 

After it got hot and we had out fun in the water and from digging a big hole in the middle of the beach, we decided to leave for the next event.

We went to a Shark marine world, there are lots of shops and it is next to the ocean, plus there are plenty of things to do such as watching dolphins and the aquarium, and a lizard place and other thing, obviously it is sad to see all the animals because you know where they come from and what they could have had an now they are all in cages and in stressed environments with thousands of people looking at them and screaming at them and touching the cages and just people.

So we were there for a couple of hours and we did not do much as it all costs money and time, we didn’t really have both lol.

So the time came and we had to get moving home, we were driving in 2 cars and the one car had to follow the other, we were in a city we do not know and we were relying on boards with signs and indications etc. 

As we were looking for the high way home we had to drive through the city, I got pulled over by speed cops (traffic police) he asked me for my license and I showed him, he checked my whole car and gave me some looks, he also seemed really tired, the he said we can go. 

After this thing on the new road got complicated, we took wrong turns went into roads that could only lead you one way, we had some problems and then the cars lost each other. 

No one in either car had a phone with money on it to call or sms each other and we really had no way of making contact, we could not even make turn around because of the way the roads was designed, it was straight and forwards with many cars. 

I took the point of assuming that the other car will simply go to home, as that will be the practical thing to do in such a situation and they did do that. 

The other car took the right wrong turn, lol and we took the wrong wrong turn, basically opposite ways. 

We carried on driving straight looking for a board sign that would direct us to the main highway back home, we continued driving and looking, there was not off turn points for kilometers, so we should only continue. 

As we continued we saw the environment change from being nice clean and with rich people to more of a dirty environment with uglier cars and poor people, as we continued driving it gradually got worse, poorer people and more, it made the rich people seem like a speckle so many poor people was there.

Then we came to a really bad area and I was thinking by myself, at the beach I thought wow, so many people that still have money, because the beach was full of people with money and really nice cars and clothes and houses, but as we went the wrong way my perspective changed very quickly on how many people really have money. 

Thousands still had lots of money and they are literally in a different world then the millions that live quit a distance away in a really shit area and environment. 

I realized we had to get out and we are lost, people were starting to look at us and in the poor areas there are only a couple of cars on the road, in the rich area there are thousands of cars and its really busy, the poor people are walking everywhere or taking busses (taxis) in the thousands. 

If all those poor people would have to go to the rich area just for one day, it will be fucked and the rich will be in the shit hole in no time with the rest. 

We made a turn at a circle that we found, but did not dare to stop anywhere, we were sticking out quit clearly and this becomes a target for the poor. 

How did we get to go so far and not turn around earlier, because we were looking for signs and in the poor areas people just do not care to put up signs and give directions, the boards probably gets stolen anyway. And there was just no way for us to find any way out, so many different ways we could go but where would it lead us? We cannot get out and ask for directions, we will get robbed, mugged or stabbed and even raped, depends on the situation. 

So we went back all the way, it took a whole wile and once we saw a petrol station we stopped and climbed out and I went inside and asked for directions, the guy there was asking me how did you get here if you cannot get back and he laugh, I said it was a new environment for me and I do not know the road.

He laughed again when he heard that there was not even one board sign on the road to show us the way – and he said, this is (can remember the name) and not our home town, down here you are alone.

And then he gave me directions and we got out after a while and went home.

It was a real eye opener for me to see how in a distance of about 20km (not that much) you can go from really rich and healthy people to the complete opposite of it in 25min.  In a type of way that looks like it is slowly happening, rich, middle class, poor, poorer, and poorest and then finally get out. 

We have to do something about the way the world works and what we are accepting and allowing in it, when will the time come that those millions of poor people that has to watch the few thousands having everything and enjoying it without considering them and literally physically with force take it all for them because we denied it to them as equals. It will be brutal and the rich will stand no chance, be happy poor people can’t read this blog, because it they could they would have gotten angry and probably realize what I am saying and what they have as power in the masses. To simply take, they have nothing to lose.

I stand for a solution. Where all life is equal and exists in dignity and respect of each other.

solution for 2020..