Noise, loudness, sound, experiences.

 

Ok so I have been facing some interesting points with myself in relation to noise, well what i perceive as noise and as being loud etc.

This I have been facing within myself with the assistance of all the animals in my room.

We have rats – they are night animals and as soon as the light goes off at night they start moving and playing and running and crashing into stuff and the rip paper into little pieces, probably to keep themselves busy, this I find really annoying and I experience irritation with in me and anger towards them, the anger being that I can’t do anything about it as making them quite, and irritation being the experience of myself for not breathing and allowing it to get to me as an energetic experience.

I know that all of this is the mind, creating energetic experiences with in me because I am not breathing, because when I breathe there is not irritation and not anger and then I can fall asleep, it is really only the energetic experiences I create within myself that keep me awake and unable to sleep.

I have had many nights to breathe through it and to see the truth about it, because when I breathe I can fall asleep, when I give into the back chat in my head that goes – god dammit they are noisy, dammit I cannot sleep with this noise, aww man not again them making all the noise – fucking rats, why now, why can’t they make noise during the day. And so forth all the back chat.

In the end the only noise and the only loudness and the only sound I am hearing and that is keeping me awake is the back chat in my head.

The animals in my room have been assisting and supporting me with this point a lot, especially the parrot that can make really loud sounds, right in my ear, sometimes my ears goes cheeeeeee, and then I realize if I am breathing the noise is noise nothing more, it does not influence me, if I give into back chat then I get really noisy and loud in my head – this creates the experience of irritation and anger and then the more i allow back chat it compounds, this causes possessions and consequences for myself.

So breathe and if any sound, noise, loudness is being made in your environment, see if you are still within yourself, that your water isn’t stirred and moved. If you are breathing it is simply something that is here. This is in relation to animals currently and I have worked with heavy machinery that is loud.

nature and animals and life that is not man made is all noisy and loud and making sounds – the bugs the birds the monkeys etc. it is part of expression as the physical, people that wants quietness is delusional and will mindfuck themselves.

I have many times and only to realize that the only silence must be in my head – stop the back chat. stop the little man screaming in your head and breathe as the physical.

Reptilians and Equal Money

I have 2 Nile monitor lizards in my room; I have been observing them and taking care of them.

The one point that I see is most prominent is food, they must have food when they are hungry.

Once I leave them to go hungry for just a bit longer they go into survival mode, their survival mode pushes them to see each other as food or as a threat, they will literally check each other out as being But it has already been pushed, they now went from calm relaxing mode into survival mode, just this one point of postponing their food for one day.

Take into consideration – they can go without food for a long time as they are lizards and cold blooded and they eat big meals and chucks of it at once, and they within their design can go without food for a while, so I feed my 2 lizards every 4 to 5 days, depends on how fat their stomachs is, because If I feed them every day they eat nothing of it and I wasn’t a lot, it also all depends on their size of the lizard, because when they were smaller I had to feed them every day now at a bigger stage their bodies has developed and can handle more (exactly like humans).

So I pushed them to not getting food for a week, their stomachs were normal – meaning I could see there was nothing in, and their weren’t starving - you know how you are after a day of not eating anything or waiting a bit to long between breakfast and lunch, you feel like you can eat a horse lol.

So their behaviour becomes the falling after not feeding them for a week –they become agitated and they became possessed with the feeling of hunger – they start moving all around the cage and they start to want to climb out the whole time, they want to get food, they scratch the glass and they even attack each other and they literally react towards each other when one of them suddenly enters another once presence as if the one entering is possible food, they check each other out in a moment of tenseness and sometimes they might try and attack.

So then I come along with a big piece of chicken that I cut in many small pieces for them and I throw it in, they go ballistic, trying to protect their pieces that they gained and they then literally attack each other to say fuck off it is mine. They run away or swallow the food as fast as they can.

After the meal, they are super calm, they lay down in the sun and bake, they lay on top of each other and sometimes it looks like they are holding hands, they now after the meal can stop survival and live, enjoy themselves. They go for swims and they crawl around in no form of survival. Being here.

NOW – the obvious must be shown here. Humans have the exact same lizard brain in our heads; we act just like them in survival and fear.

And within the current money system we all are left to live within this fear and survival, so we all are actually Lizards currently walking among each other trying to defend out pieces of food and shelter and property because we fear the other lizard will take it from us. So we fight and so we kill and so we do onto another as we fish they would not do onto us, take our food and take our life’s.

Half of the world is currently suffering in poverty and living in super harsh conditions and they all have gone beyond the point of the lizards, they have lost to the other lizards already, me and you with the money, taking all their food and everything we can because we all fear to lose it, we fear being hungry so we starve half of the world so we do not have to.

So what did I with the lizards prove – that when everyone gets fed, no matter how much and how strong your nature is – if you are fed you will stop survival mode and you will stop the fear and be able to live together, because I used lizards as the experiment, as lizards present the complete point of survival and animal nature.

We need to FEED the whole world equally to stop the madness of the human accepted and allowed so called nature, and this can be really simple.

EQUAL MONEY for all from birth till death, because if it is from birth till death then the child will not know survival or fear – the human nature that we give so much power will simply not be with the child because he does not have to survive and fear for life, he will simple receive unconditional food water shelter education etc, and Labour to do.

And what ahs it proven to us what happened to the lizards – they started getting more expressive with each other and close and caring and not bothered, they could actually now relax and live and be aware of their environment and each other rather than only being concerned about food and if they will starve to death or not, where will the next meal come from, when will the meals stop coming.

It is a really simple experiment and observation that shows a lot,

We need EQUAL MONEY.

www.equalmoney.org

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I have success, No more alcohol.

Yes i have success.

In what you may ask? Well the success is me and that I have successfully stopped drinking for three years now.

But why?
It all started three years Ago, I was a really heavy drinker, got home late nights or early on weekends because I was throwing up

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at the party’s everywhere and swearing at people and making fights with my family and hitting animals and breaking my fists against walls. Crazy shit.

So after every night that I drank i kept on telling myself the next day, i will never drink again, because there is this moment after every time I drank that I realized that i am fucked as a human being and that I hate this world and this life (actually it is always only yourself you hate), well actually the way I lived is what I hated because that is why I drank, that is why alcohol exists, to suppress and place people in denial for a moment so that when work begins they can continue and so the cycle of zombie is created.

So after i spend lots of money on a shit load of alcohol and making myself an ass always in front of many people, I one day realized that if I continue this way i will die very young, I realized that I had to stop and I had to stop here and now in this moment because I already have broken all trust I have with myself through saying after every party that I will stop drinking and never stopping, so it has to happen here!!!

But How then??
I first had to Admit I needed help, I needed to find a way to not just stop drinking alcohol, but I had to change me as who i am at the core of myself, my will, to change and to stop drinking, I was getting abusive, i was really getting fucked, waking up next to my mother because I was throwing up in my sleep, laying with the one leg off the bad with my mouth against the bed with puke on the side of the bed, my mother had to keep me alive while I was fucking myself up.

I knew the system, the Matrix could not help me because it it the system that I am participating within that is driving me to drink, well I drove myself to drink but used the system as an excuse, so how can that which is the creation of the fuck up help me get out of it, it could not!

I had to find help that is something I would never expect, something hat I will find different, something that is not of the system and that is actually providing me with physical things to help myself to change myself, because I was a practical guy, I always wanted to be able to measure things, that if I do this I get this because it makes sense.

So I looked and saw that there were no one, I talked to my mother and I made and broke every promise I ever made her so there was nothing that could be trusted and the same for my dad, i did the same with my friends but they always encouraged me to drink with because they wanted me to buy them a drink, I could not go to AA meetings because I know it is bullshit all they do is talk and talk and listen to stories – this I already did with my mother and father and friends and really there is no difference. I just continued.

I needed something such as a measuring tool, a tool that could help me to see me and so that I can actually walk through the temptations and through the desires. A tool that can actually support and assist me to change, I saw myself for the truth of myself and realized that I cannot trust myself as who I currently am and existing as.

It was and is time for me to change, to stand up from the self inflicted abuse I caused towards myself and abused many in the same process.

I found Desteni – Desteni provided a forum, a forum with information on almost everything, it also provides something that i have never seen any where ells, tools, tools that I can apply myself daily to support and assist myself with, the tools were simple, Self forgiveness, self honesty, common sense and the basic guideline was breath,

If i did not understand why self forgiveness will work and if I did not understand something with in my application I simply had to search for information that would explain it to me on the forum, all the answers was there to many questions and I was able to build understanding, watching all the videos.

I could only have approached this direction because I have embraced myself to stop, to change and see what I am accepting and allowing to exist in this reality as my truth,

I later on in my process saw that the desires and temptations was still within me, even thought eh Self forgiveness and self honesty and breath did support and assists me in stopping, the memories was still within me with in my cells within my foundations. As a resonant point.

This I sorted out with the New ITD (Introduction to desteni ) and DIP (Desteni I process) where I started much later with in my process working on Mind constructs and taking apart all these things walking timelines and memories, to do real specific self forgiveness and self corrective statements as the living word and re creating my foundations of who i am.

Because it is who i am that determines what i do.

So i can but only encourage all to come and join the DIP and ITD courses here with Desteni – visit the DIP website and check it all out – there is much more..

My success is but one of many. I stopped smoking weed, i stopped smoking, I stopped many hobbits that was not best for all and abusive towards me and life.

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I have with these courses established many points of self will and I have a principal that I live by – something I would never have expected from me and who i was three years ago. It is amazing once one push through to not give power to the ego but to self as life as what is best for all.