2012 This is the Line and possession with Self forgiveness.

In my mind I have created right and wrong, good and bad, instead of what is best for all life in all ways. 

Through this judgment in my mind as what is good and what is bad I have created a line, a invisible line that only exists in my mind. 

This line has two sides, one side is good, the other side is bad, and so I have designed myself according to what is good and what is bad through using this invisible line in my mind as a reference to when I am crossing the line or when I am just right, on the right side.

This line comes from my education as a child, what I can do and not do and I accordingly judged it as right and wrong, my parents and my teachers and my fellow beings that was all around me gave me their polarities on all the things in the world and so I took it on as my own. 

Through creating this line in my mind of what is good and what is bad I have created a demon within me.

This demon is like the police officer in my head, he stands guard all the time watching this line, and the scary thing is, he isn’t just watching what I am doing, he is watching what everything and everyone else is doing, every time someone crosses the line according to my judgments of good and bad the demon talks to me in the back of my head. 

He will tell me look, someone or something has crossed the line, you were never allowed to do that, how can they, it is wrong and they must be put in place, behind the line, there where it is good and save.

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the demon (this is actually just me talking to myself in my head and so I have created all the back chat and entities with in my through generating energy with in me through the judgments as positive and negative and so when the points come up the energy compounds and build up and I am possessed by it) 

And do the demon will talk to me and give all reasons and justifications and opinions to me why it is crossing the line, mostly the demon will use things that he knows will get me to react, things like my own personal experiences that I had in the past and use that as reference, this will end up validating what the demon is saying about someone/thing crossing the line. 

I will get over whelmed with the energies that is worked up inside of me about someone or something crossing the line, I will end up in some moments when I am not breathing and doing self forgiveness to go into it and I will have no control, the entity as the demon will act. 

Here is a example to set it all into perspective.  

As A child I was thought through being yelled at and getting spanked to not mess with my food, so when I eat food it must all be on my plate, I must not spill the rice or the sauces or anything off the plate onto the floor, I have to sit straight and keep my elbows off the table.

This created a line for me, one example of many, I knew that if I stepped over the line than that would mean big shit and so I created good and bad, what is right and wrong with in only that one point in my life.

So now I live my life according to what I was thought and so judge myself and everything and everyone around me if they are doing it as I have to or not.

So now that I am older and grown up I have learned to see this as the only way, I have learned that this is the right way, I have learned that if you do not stay behind the line you will get punished through getting yelled at or getting smacked and afterwards you will be told why, maybe, only sometimes, mostly people will only say – DON’T MESS.. Why? I did not know.

So I would walk in the house and I would see the dogs got their food, they represent the child in me before the brainwashing and mind control was set in, I see they got bones and rice to eat, it is all nicely in a bowl, but I see the dogs take out their bones and go eat it on the floor or on the beds, My first thought is “don’t mess” I react and go to the dog and grab the bone and place it back into the bowl, I get angry that the rice is now all over the floor and want to correct them, I do not know how as it is already too late. 

I feel irritated by the dogs messing everywhere, they have crossed the line. I believe now that the dogs need to be disciplined, they need to get yelled at or smacked for doing this. 

I did not do anything and stepped away and left it as it is, I realized I had no idea what just happened, they are dogs, they do not have the morality we have and aren’t limited to it as we are, they live in innocence and have no concept of what the fuck I am reacting to, getting possessed about. 

I have now realized it is all about money, if money was never a problem, food would have never ben a problem in this world and thus it would never have been a problem for me to enjoy myself with my food that looks like messing it and I would never have and to get yelled at or smacked for it, I do understand now why it was done onto me, but I have to take self responsibility for myself to not continue the sins of the fathers. 

I apply Self forgiveness. 
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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a line with in my mind and projecting it out into my reality and through this act and behave, instead of simply living with in common sense and practicality with in what is best for all life. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only act on the idea I have created about the line in my head and not to stop and question the line in my head and why I have this specific believe that the line is made to not gross or else. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place a policeman in my head to check at all times when I am crossing the line or not and to keep me in check and never questioning where it comes from and if it is best for all life or simply a program running in my head to keep me limited and enslaved to the mind. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react and get angry and irritated with others or things when I perceive that they are crossing the line.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react when I see others crossing the line that I have created in y mind because I feel insecure that I was never allowed to do it and now here they are doing it. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel the need to punish and limited others as I was punished and limited to not cross the line so that I do not have to feel insecure or left out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge others as bad when they are crossing the line according to where I have set the invisible line in my mind and to react and act on my judgments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want and desire to place others under my control of the invisible line so that I can feel in control of the line and that no one will cross it as I do not cross it. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear crossing the line and to see what lies on the other side with in self honesty and what is best for all life, realizing it isn’t about what is good and what is bad but rather what is common sense and best for all life. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear punishment if I cross the line.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear punishment from authorities if I dare cross the line.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the line in my mind and to project it onto others in my world to have a make believe control over them so I can feel better about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to keep the invisible line in my head as a way to keep me save and from facing my fears of conflict and realizing that there isn’t anything on the other side but me and my past experiences. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that what was done onto me must be done onto others as it must have been right, why else would it have been done onto me, thus realizing that I was actually abused and if I should do this onto another as me I will only abuse them as I was.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to do onto others as what was done onto me just so that I do not have to live alone in my own limitations, realizing that I can stand up from and with in it and change who I am through showing me the way it was created and applying self forgiveness to give back to me a new way to start with understanding this time. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others from stepping over the line and that they will get punished as I did, fearing their punishment, and through this fear  try and prevent it through abusing them first with my punishment towards them believing my punishment is better than someone else’s at least, not as bad as it would have been for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify my abuse towards others through making it sound nicer to myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify my limitations and believe through placing it on others to convince them it is real as I was convinced it was real through punishment and abuse. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear punishment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being punished for something hat is seemed as wrong and not right according to the line I and society have created for ourselves as limitations with in the current limited monetary system of enslavement and control. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame and judge the monetary system for why I am not changing it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame the past for who I am now, realizing that I can see in the past what happened to create what is here through my acceptance and allowance and thus I have to take self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to control everything in my reality according to this line.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry when I see someone else cross the lien and I am not allowed to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am not allowed to cross the line, 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as bad if I cross the line. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as being bad and not normal when I cross the line. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the line in my head of what is good and what is bad and the consequences it may bring.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give the line value according to past experiences that I can use to justify as being valid and real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see the line as holy and must never be tested or questioned, realizing that if I question the line I can set myself free with common sense and self honesty and live that which is best for all and not in fear of a line in my head.