I have been sitting at my desk many nights wondering and pondering on how can i make a difference in this world, I am powerless I have told myself many times, How can I possible make a difference in this reality with all the people already in power.
I have given up so many times within myself and with in doing anything to change this world, because everything that I found I was able to do wasn't effecting anything or anyone in a big way to make a change, yes I have changed a few people’s minds and yes I have picked up all the trash laying around in my neighborhood that people just throw out into the fields, I have tried my best to what I could do. So I thought.
I have been there, sitting alone in my room in front of the pc, thinking about all the shit I read in the newspaper just minutes ago about a women getting raped by 10 men at a time and then shot through the stomach because they did not want her to get pregnant, about all the bad really destructive things happening in this world such as war’s and poverty and child sex trafficking, have numbed myself towards it to a certain degree that when I open the new paper the next day I can look at it and not feel bad, so that I can turn the T.V on and not react anymore to the brutality, because I have given up within myself and given all my power to the system,
I have been there walking in the street wondering when I am going to get stabbed or robbed or when I will be stuck in a shopping mall stick up where they beat the customers up and shoot someone in front of me just to make their point that they want money to feed their child like we all will do in their situation.
I have been there driving in my car in fear of the man on the street asking for money and I can’t really help him, feeling guilty because I know I have and he does not, I have suppressed it in such a way that I actually now get angry at them because I allowed myself to feel powerless to help them.
I have been there where I sit in front of my pc in a dark room feeling so little and that everything ells in this world is so big and that I can’t do anything o end animal abuse or to save the earth from being destroyed by man’s hand, sitting by myself and giving up feeling pressed down by the ignorance of society all depressed.
I have been there where it all gets too much, the violence the murder the brutality the destruction the fear the anxiety the hopelessness and the powerlessness within me, where I go and drink my weekends away to forget it all, to drown myself in entertainment that society provides, to drown myself in the entertainment of friends and ignorance, to forget that it all is real, this the next day’s newspaper.
2 girls, aged 6, gang raped and hanged from their homes sealing, parents shot through head, nothing was stolen.
The government promises 20 million people brick homes, the government throws major party worth 200 million rands for his family, no brick homes were built.
I read this, it is happening all around me all the time,
I found a way to change my powerlessness, I found a solution to change this world, to change what we have accepted and allowed as a group to exist within and as this reality.
I first had to change myself and who i am, I had to change my participation within the system to that which is best for all, to do what I would like others to do onto me, to live in everyday in every breathe as a principal that is best for all, I stopped my sorrowing and I stopped my feelings and emotions of powerlessness.
And I started acting towards a solution that will work with in and as this physical reality as a group in equality.
In all the time that I spend drinking and sorrowing and partying and that I spend giving up, I could have created a new world lol, So that is what I am now doing with in my daily participation, I change me and who i am with in all of this, I change me as the creator of everything that is here, because is it only common sense that the world is fucked up because we all are here creating it that way, so we all simply have to create it better, first fix who we are as the problem to what the solution is and the solution will come as the living expression of who we are.
I have been in this process for three years now and I have changed myself to start living for that which is best for all, love thy neighbours as thy self in each breathe.
I obviously could can not do this alone and could not have started this out of thin air, I started with reading and studying the material from the Desteni website, www.desteni.co.za and thus my process of changing who I am started and so I am patient and still within my process learning every day, applying myself in every way that I can to stop me as abuse, and stand as life as that which is best for all. As a living principal.
I also have been doing a course with Desteni for 2 years now as the SRA course and I am now also an agent, www.desteniiprocess.com , this is super supportive and also gives me an income and this can be achieved by anyone participating so check it out.
And the practical way for this reality as a group is to change the money system, this can be checked out at www.equalmoney.org -
Stop giving up and see what can be done. It is all here and available and we all can do this as a group.
Study the material and get familiar with it all, once you have understanding it will be understood.
